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Okay I think Hbo reality t.v. is a good idea and I don't see why not little nemo on hbo. I think turning this back into a blog over a psychosis logging will take quite a long time. I didn't want to admit this shit went on to anna in 2007 on Season:1 but she must have known something was wrong when I didn't pop out three featurw films for Sva thesis. Just one day the tv show started hurting physically there were headaches and my body didn't hurt yet but casting JtHm was really painful I hurt on a scale of ten it felt like metal vines attacking the inside of my mind and sometimes there were "distraction voices" from the producers for the purpose of the t.v. show so drinking was a means of survival that year. One short film was Embaressing for me but I thought I was also on art school t.v. and the producers wanted me to have a look of Sva lush on the show and would after I graduated appear before me so all my pain was worth it. I had killer headaches and went off my meds at times I'm sure I was told to do this. I can't believe how long it took to come to and realize this was a psychosis and narrow "producers" down to physical symptoms. But I logged all of it the entire journey which adds up from each Adderall pill I take (it seems to add logic together that I am not on a t.v. show) and each pill I skipped left me with doubled symptoms of psychosis and a sleeping problem that was worse tham childhood. Ontop of AdHd I think I always had a sleeping problem and probably needing something in addition to wake me up. My body sleeps for 2p hours without (even sometimes with) Adderall and will not wake up and I nap after everything I do. So obviously without my pill I am aleft without the ability to even work grip. In addition in 2007 the psychosis added being REALLY shy emotion to me like scared of people. Thus I could barely function Season:1 when I intern for Natalie Portman in Williamsburg , Brooklyn let alone approach her/avoided it but thought I was on Season:1 of my t.v. show and expected on that day to hit on her. Even being around anna almost was weird that year, a feeling of fear is one of my psychosis symptoms but 2008with an apartment I kept going with a 24/7 hipster hot pregaming act. I presumed Hbo had spycams following me. I presumed James Hughes and my other friends were Producers on the show. I thought I was electronically hit with soundwaves in my apt to make me awkward like Beta Soundwave attacks by Hbo. If I was wrong I was fucked because I'm out of cash. But it ends up being schizophrenia and the symptoms can only be fixed with a pill.