me-it's outcast to say schizophrenic

Me- in the event we were not on tv jump in front of the train like Hbo said season one when we fought in my Brooklyn apartment. And the old footage is there http://www.youtube.com/forecastmazyfilms I remember when i made the music videos i couls barely edit and put astrology red and greens in there like 84 for the year i was born. Because there was nothing else i could do in a way i mean i got these headaches and i cant really survive without jd and i was trying to do my tisch mfa application and the best i could do were shitty music videos. I couldnt talk to people because a wave of anxiety comes over me and I WAS never like that. And sometimes the producers who are the voices tell me to go off my , like schizophrenia just started one day. Or whatever you would call these symptoms and there was noone to tell and off my meds im without intellect and lost. This is the situation that loses me my Brooklyn apartmemt which i got because i thought I was on Hbo amd joining the Brooklyn army. I thought 24/7 i was hit with soundwaves because it feels like that. Thats the inside of my mind thats supposed to work to pay 1900 rent which should not be a big deal. Suddenly without some doctor to talk to i cant work anything but meanilial jobs. And time moves on with film crews moving on and i'm never on a set hiding with a bachelors in fine arts because nobody wants to say schizophrenia