it's a panic attack mixed with the urge to bite my hand compulsively

There is the meanie heart time where it makes me seizure where i have to sweat it's fucking ridiculoud bullshit and any voice i have talked to bullshit i am a fucking seed waiting ti be born i hate the Meanie Heart i sit here and talk faggot bullshit that i talk about and it tries to make me hyper and theres biting and its not my fault me-i will stay away from everyone important there has to be cash in schizophrenic people i know i made this faggot art and im doing it right now theres a ghost or whatever that i ignore and i cant helo bite myself i want my life back the instinct to draw on a newspaper overtakes me i sweat a bit if i was a painter those would look like art but it's not for me fucking shit so guy just tried to talk to me again who shits himself and preaches about jesus i hate these people i have a disorder to draw it gets annoyig the meanie heart it's awful. I can't imagine going near anyone the thing like tries get to my attention this weird shit i hate it