It steals my emotion and argues with me about the future trying to turn the seizure into art again it causes a tickle inside my crotch and pretends to be christie cummings from my novels i'm glad i'm little nemo to the extent that i take pride in ideas. I'm spending alot of time talking about beinf a seed saying things that don't matter i finally didn't sleep last night and an argument ensues earlier about artwork and it uses amnesia it doesn't matter it wants to depride me tells me that future ideas will be destroyed that i will never earn an ego it begs on this one to overtake my writing basing it on emotion it acts as though the next thing i say is the next thing i do i summon the dead again to helo me and have a chat with Lou Reed it wants mental hospital in the writing i'm not sure if it's done it's also supposed to be a guy in the government the conversations i have art worthless with this one we conversate by talking through my body i don't do this too often nowadays i almost quieted yesterday but it claimed more help from Frank Sinatra. It clears my emotion again i feel nothing and write anyway but it's just about as empty as the days. If the writing is important don't tell, christie cummings is here to stop you, you will never be famous from this-it sprouts words and it's about as inspiring as my mode. I don't count time with my teeth problems. From 2009-2011 i didn't brush my teeth and it weakened them for when i bite down on my hand in the seizure. Something that talks to me is ahead of me-and the emotions are designed by a lack of adderall. Anything that doesn't happen is blamed on my porn job in the future-which i want after directing. But i need practice and a camera i'm on pause and tormented. Sometimes i think the government homeland security voice is serious when it asks if i really plan on doing my future ideas like making a band or asking for speed on stage. We're back to everybody wants to destroy your art and the government supposedlt controls my world. But i don't believe this nor really want to get into the blank feeling in my mind this moment causes. I'm having a fake argument with a fake christie cummings as whatever you'd acknowledge this as-goes to future thoughts to stop them/makes my dick pulsate. The writing is dead and the voice depends on me going to jail for panhandling. Sometimes a spirit named uncle john will talk to me and make good things happen. Be more specific-it's a mental block and it's from the lack of adderall in me sometimes i think the christie cummings character is serious about it's words. Iy erases upcoming words and uses a tickle sexual feeling. If i can't write is not a big deal in it's world because i'll do it anyway. This sounda like 08 where i'm told an artist would make art no matter whay. I'm on a train and i think i'm honoring Silias Rhodes School of Visual Arts founder and communicating with the School of Visual Arts and the Weinstein Company who is logging my world post Brooklyn apartment in forecastmazy.blogspot.com years later i know there's no point in writing later when the adderall runs out-i hate the world from this era-but if this were the Wall we're not even on Pink. My thoughts are gone again it's a time of intense pill stretching - i don't know why this thing is so into if the cops arrest us for panhandling. I'm prequel to life. There's no reason to fear this talk out loud to break my concentration threat from today's voices in Little Nemo on Hbo-they obtain personalities but they all seem unreasonable and i only believe them if something good happens. I'll continue Big C and The Turntables one day Freddy's 1,2 Freddy's coming for you plays in the background Halloween exists outside which i named Oct31 it wants to capitalize on anything sad (for the future) and i still talk with Theodore Mapes sometimes. Since Teddy died next to me it makes sense to me he'd follow me. It wants to mock my lack of adderall and mocks seed fuel this is like a meanie heart thing where it will attempt to stop verbally any future i plan in ant vague way. Already i don't make it to being on stage with Big C and The Turntables. Please consider me your adderall Mewes when you see me any year and give me this a.d.d. med. I feel the energy further drop, the tickle stays and mocks the next thing i'll say, swirls around my emotions, tells me it's in control, that i sound bad, that it wants to stop my future fame. There's no point in conversation next it will want to prove we can make artwork off adderall. It's a high pitch noise and a tickle feeling deep down i feel nothing and ignore the irritation. Of course in the future at a later age when i cash right i will never run out. Acne came from staying up i'm sweaty from trying (mention mental hospitak again it tells me-sometimes the christie voice /area of stored what-it-says tells me shit beyond the amnesia. It also pretends there is a stay together and christie cummings conversation. This started in forecastmazy.blogspot.com because christie cummings is Vanessa in my novel. Anything, anything - Drammaramma and i theme it at 47 metropolitian avenue williamsburg , brooklyn in the end it represents this pure art with the ghosts i love on Little Nemo on Hbo. They never broke my quiet on my bench, the air was always cool and warm and my life and a hipster flashforwars and back. Live with Animals was the last place i filmed with my dvx before it got stolen after forecastmazy.blogspot.com I thoughy it was electric waves or subconcious soundwaves that made me feel anxiety like a child afront the older kids but it was a schizophrenic symptom. In a way my peers were the older kids, they had beaten their demons where i was running from my father (and i thought so on t.v.) atleast the bench wasn't near Grand Central terminal to go to his home-i thought outside 47 metropolitian avenue williamsburg , brooklyn - but now i can't understand why i'd think or feel this or what would compell me during season:2 of Little Nemo on Hbo to feel like one day if not safeguarded i might zombie automatically return to my biological father's home. It's too far from that era to relate to the concept that a movie producer could hold me hostage - i just don't relate to this 2009 idea. And sometimes he is trying to free me from the republican party. Manyaday i'm still out there because i believe in his legend (stealing dollar notepads and minipads from Duane Reade to draw on all day as they log my eye in supposedly groundbreaking thought through retina reading apple technology). In a later season i have to hire Microsoft to save me from Harvey Weinstein, after he's raked up my arrest record for the times i get caught. And this counts as a misdemeaner as though you stole a $600 iPhone on youe jail record. And each time i return to the cute photographers on the N.y.c. Truman front of the show the NypD they take it harder and harder on you as i fall down the Alice in Wonderland of little nemo on hbo's police preceincts. And each time i get caught they give me a ticket and i throw it away because i think i'm on Hbo. But the cops always let me go. The other end of Weinstein Company in the Hbo studio names it going down, you know, like for art. Which I have to steal and make because Harvey Weinstein demands it. And soon they don't let me go for sodas. And soon American Apparel arrests me for their addition to the show, which surprises me because i thought they were sponsoring Little Nemo on Hbo for the times i just walked in took clothes and left. But then i thinj Harvey Weinstein controls if i go to jail. And once that shoplifting is gone paris hilton is no longer turned on by the Series:7 aspect of Little Nemo on Hbo. This is 2009. By 2011 Microsoft must advise, program the show and save me back to my own freewill (led by Bill Gates, who advises me each step of my rise against Weinstein). In 2011 I face my greatest fear and battle for my freedom from a movie producer who exists in my Mind with Microsoft who has to advise me to rise up, get my piercing from the East Village that comes to be a symbol of Paul Raura of silver tiles. And symbol like tattoo, symbol inside myself to be brave enough to continue despite fearing for my life and not knowing why seizures start off my medication in 2011 as i panhandle my way through the mta line by line penny arcade by penny arcade rising against Harvey Weinstein on the show proving on Little Nemo on Hbo he had no power over me. This is a man i feared in a bittle way and was loyal to until he told me not to be in jail. Then takes it back on the train but it's too late- and his rage was to kill me for by mouth taking back the world fortune of Little Nemo on Hbo which was to be the largest fortune in the world, passed like a ball by word on this show (press conferences were big; the biggest announcement being the day i give the fortune to caitlin rodriguez - i of course couldn't see this because i'm Truman). But in the end of this concept at the West Park Church in chaos magick ceremony at Barney' co-op i win all of the cursed blood money of my murdered innocence of Little Nemo on Hbo for Anna Gripentrog over "gunn" from Brazil (a clone of anna who taught me to steal from outside racks in williamsburg , brooklyn amongst a 24/7 system of constantly changing my clothes sometimes twice in one day to resurrect myself back to the williamsburg scene (this is to beat the days i can't shower as an Occupier and was also in chaos magick the days i couldn't shower was because i was doing voodoo in chaos magick). Save point.

Myspace.com/little.nemo

Nobody can read what that site says, it's just the best adderall and i could do at Best Buy in the night. It's a good site name. Alot of art pieces are chaos magick and i add people's names to art past to today to honest clips brutally honest. I have a condition that i feel people's hand movements as liquid inside me the hands appear yellow and i feel them in my cum, if you are a psychiatrist and can cure this and take health first please call 203o098766 i live in ny,ny (but in tradition and mentally always base my blogger profe in Williamsburg , Brooklyn)

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my creative driee with the beautifuk dry mouth of adderall as this kid drains my Obaama phone minutes every noise sets me closer to the seizure-you'll know whem i'm there-it's alot of talk about workinh in porn and i am one day to be the Meanie Heart. Go to jail-no not you bobo-that's all i hear from this empty black guy. Awful noises everytime these people speak-please God let a doctor hear my help call, without my meds i am only Metallica - One and there's fucking a kid here named Elijah One. Somebody save me. My teeth are gone, atleast in the sense i mean. The fear of my battery dieing means i never have this previously blog entry for you to find after my current leaving me no future, the camera equipments gone and my soul lives in the boyscout's room with a barn door afronting the gym at the West Park Church above where Teddy lives. The place I used to smoke Parliament Lights and rolling cigarettes. A place with my adderall. I don't understand why i skip a word but can't stop. Like straw would matter Phish - Farmhouse, sometimes i miss Josh Lindwall. I live in shame of my teeth now. I am dead in a shelter, there will never be a transition this is a lie. Voicing Hallerina plays with ny eyelids as words immediately fade. I miss screenwriterpro and the ability before i got sick. My inner screenwriter feels blocked i need a pill to fix this i call this schizophrenia. When will adderall come. To me, I advertised to have a future i just want somebody to know we exist. The seizure threatens me agsin. My environment tries to hurt me, asks me where i am. I am The Rolling Stones - Like a Rolling Stone one-directed on death to the scene in Williamsburg , Brooklyn. I say this out-loudy to imply this AS the set base of Little Nemo on Hbo and audience in youtube.com/forecastmazyfilms to base my home run against what i called the thing at that point. To document for an audience whatever my student loan display is. silvertiles.blogspot.com when i read that blog it's so honest it hurts. I stikl have this faith the producers of Hbo will pay me. I still have realistic dreams if i were A Michael Bloomberg Production. The Brc people talk again and i want to die-like i feel their own poverty from working here. I'm missing my bfa economy because of the world after forecastmazy.blogspot.com and my teeth . In this theoccupyfashion.blogspot.com i run against time into fixing my face on the highest end products i can steal i know i have untreated emergency symptoms that left untreated leave me in a baby capability in tackling Mandy.com which is an emergency need to i emailed David Rhodes to please google little nemo on Hbo By this point i know i'm not on tv - yet - but i want a cash return for the schizophrenia forecastmazy.blogspot.com investment - if only my answer is to never pay back my student loans - but this implies i never get back the ability to screenwrite - the lights horrify my environment i literally in my actions don't live in i am only sonic the speed hedgehog who is not affiliated with the sins of 25Th street. I pray to Lou Reed to help me. I can't figure my way through the amnesia- i pray so i don't lose my phone in ammesia momento washing over my eye and go back into a panic attack or because i can't focus i pray a doctor will appear that cares. I didn't think of all this before. See i'm not really Christian so ghosts and souls are as matter of fact as church and jesus for christians as is to universalist me.

amnesia2015

I don't like the people in this shelter and i was going to say black but i don't want to down my obaama vote. Everytime somebody speaks in this shelter i just feel a pounding in my head, and it's the sort of pounding you get when you return to the world from saying your nigger electronic republican who's medication deprived for two years for voting Obaama It's 2015 and the tech (staff people) of the Brc shelter keep bleeding words. No smoking for dieing black man who mumbles. I'm shaking with amnesia. The screaming through me aches from everytime these people speak at this shelter and the amnesia appears if i sleep. Fate would only have me write if it really hurts and it does all day and nights. My insides ache for a cigarette i feel people's hands again, moving, like cum. The maxx had Julie Winters and I have anna the ghost. Something tries to distract me again, words i can never recover. A nigger nurse keeps my medication locked away from me thar she stole from my locker with staff. Some spic woman bitches again i can't stand her words. These words have a long traditiom in Lou Reed lyrics, Lou Reed at Occupy Wallstreet at Columbus flashes by. I remember loving everyone-it's 2011 at Zuccatti Park and Jack Keruac's soul finds me the Occupation. Sometimes the voices have surpises like a park full of my people. Theodore Mapes is the first person i meet. There's nugget,cocaine and the crips protecting is from the NyPd. This is home, under a Hello Kitty tent i am home. Don't be that guy is the phrase in the tent across from me currently being interviewed for High Times magazines. Trucks of wikileaks and Eastern Bag shadow outside the park. Guarding our fortrace. Remember, remember the 15th of November. I smoke a cigarette out of the two cartons i stole from my little nemo on Hbo run at Jfk. It's 2015 and somebody smashes my concentration on my 347 Obaama phone. Occupy Wallstreet is Barak Obaama's Woodstock and he is black J.f.k.

i get so scared when it' something important, when i have a feeling inside my head that will never come again and i'm writing it on this thing, amnesia will destroy me in a second and reguardless of the circumstantial reality a force rules over little nemo on hbo and this force wants to prolong this era, before i start going out to shows and living again. Correcting typos hurt and so does the idea of acknowledging this as a shelter it's dark and echos the Dr.Bronner's smell of the Agerholm house, but i'm under attack today because the producers that are voices or voices that are producer want to await my next bottle of Adderall to right. I'm forced into an angered state after my cock exclains, a physical function the thing currently holds alongside flashing memories. It takes my creativit, I see it move across the corner of my eye. Do I watch Comfortably Numb again. Tony crashed his car and i own my Panasonic 49 inch on 49th street i join the hermetic society of america (which reallt just requires you e-mail them) it's forecastmazy.blogspot.com the year is 2007 and i leave my door open that summer before thesis to let people in to hypnotize me, to flirt with me, they were there i remember waking up and seeing them there hypnotizing me and i felt my answers above me. But this could have been a really vivid dream of narcolepsy. The people never follow up with their hypnotic info on hypnotizing me to see what i want with Arcade Fire member Sarah Neufeld. I never even see a hint of them in the day. Later in forecastmazy.blogspot.com voices would persist me to make JtHm instead of Little Nemo at The School of Visual Arts leading to my fate of becoming the little nemo of little nemo on hbo. -Little Nemo (theoccupyfashion.blogspot.com)

sometimes i can barely move and i post on youtube just to let people know i'm alive. Because i hope they'll read my profile. Because i'm promoting my empty world without anna. I thought my symptoms were caused by a machine Hbo would turn off and have no longer gps me after graduation in forecastmazy.blogspot.com but the amnesia and the symptoms are in addition to my AdHd. My eyes burn and i think of m83. I used to call the voice hallerina season:1 since it has a female electronic feel like Hal. I thought Season:2 i'd have my mind back, no amnesia or fog so i could learn my lines on an acted versiom of the show. It was supposed to feel like Girls if the show was named Emo. But it wasn't Hbo and seeing my friends Season:1 was a coincidence and the tv show was a psychosis that made me join the Republican party in 2007 for me to be their nigger on Hbo. forecastmazy.blogspot.com

Gem and my laptop oh milanta

i rush to put myself back into people the thing attacks me wants me to know my inspiration is the Gem soundtrack i have to type around amnesia sometimes i see this little light on my eye i don't know c me-it's pointless to an extent, i'll never wrap this up by the end of the bottle but the thing wants to prolong it anyway-there was even a government guy that wants to prolong the hell's kitchen story. They're drifty, sensey, i summon Frank Sinatra I mean i really need ghost help with this bothersome seizure shit. Every level or apartment move there's a symbol of Frank Sinatra, a guard who looks like him a guy at the Brc a symbol that his ghost follows me to take care of me and save me from my own possible misdoings throughout the day. It'll go on the beat will go on i'm not done but i think i provided a basic overview of my chaos magick artwork and the post republican psychosis and restoration. I couldn't even read about these people and they're holding me hostage for 7 years on Hbo. I cannot overlook my viewpoint thar the physical symptoms of shyness and AdHd instability and need of focus and it feels like a force is pushing me away from the computer-symptoms of schizophrenia are keeping me from evolving as a filmmaker -i need a doctor that has a pill for this whatever diagnosis they wish to give is fine-just please fix this and this memory problem EMERGENCY i have that whatever i did like place something down like my pen or wallet in short-term memory is immediately forgotten like erased. I was ashamed of this and was pretty sure i could hide this at some point or rather thought it was electronic ny Hbo apart of a game-art component of Little Nemo on Hbo but it's clearly a symptom of schizophrenia or that's what i label all my baf symptoms a psychiatrist would know how to diagnosis immediate-amnesia

meanieheartseizure

there was no point in writing this one the voices want me to let people know i hear voices or date girls who hear voices they didn't really say much more than that it's a high pitch sound that goes away if i stay up my creativity gets blocked and the voice now is lonely or something does't want me to meet people i've pondered how me- it's goal is to fuck with me so i'll keep going on Oct30 so today i'll type up another thing no memory so time to write the seizure the baby fucking thing is talking to me again i am still SEED dealing with stupid bullshit as it tries to talk and relationship with me future plans i'll spit out i'll never write and it will prove i can't ignore it it'll make me crazy for real i don't like to talk to this thing i ignore it but there's nothing to write about when i'm in the meanie heart the hands try to irritate me it tells me i sound like a snake grandpa Joe gets mentioned and other stupid shit i am little seed let it talk it's not there let it mention some bullshit like cousin or tell me again i can't make a futute in porn oh ni i'm like totally past talking to it i'm at the point of ignoring it completely i miss pussy shit like this leads me to eithet make it so i can fuck all the time or not at all sometimes i think it's trying to stop me from writing or is saying something but in the end it doesn't really speak, next it'll tell me a story about adderall writing without can be done or anythinh to disprove what i've alreadt said as though i'm proving or arguing i don't like t talking to me i'm learning when it goes away and in general to never have internal emotions it seems something like tgis or life in genersl could pry on that so i learn to be a good seed to learn from this bullshit the power of hate which will always lead me back to my pill this is essentially what caitlin rodriguez is god means like a fuck off to the thing that talks or any symptom of this shit iy even tries to prove it's in the same thought as me but it's 2015 and the shit it says makes no sense like john blaney is ny friend or date the deprieved it'll be a lonh time before i ever finally get a job in porn buy i promise after the amount of times i have said it in the Meanie Heart i hate anything talked to me by this shit during this period of time it really gets irritating i think of myself as the living seed mastronardi at 31 awaiting an age that counts writing words or stone and snake i need to start a band or make another Big C and The Turntables thevisualaxis website went down and i'm down to youtube.com/forecastmazyfilms it wants to tell me i'll be scared when the worker woman at this place tricks me into a hospital again i don't know why it brings up shit like this it's worthless sometimes during the Meanie Heart to speak barely is my pill in me and i can't function in times without the amnesia watches over my eye and the tickle feeling from my crotch goes away the voice implies i said something bad in talking porn future nothing it says really matters it'll tell me things like i'm jail and institution that these things represent me as though time counts in these places in my world my time seperates if in event, i don't count those period of times or the people i only count my journey back to the film industry the voice works in a repeat pattern with the seizure sometimes it goes away but i'm pretty sure i need the pill that gets rid of them and so far seriquil is only for sleep. Deep down i don't have anything to say i just write to spite the voices, one time i had a whole storyline with Lena Dunham on Season:4 all sorts of shit this shit makes up that i go for that is probably real in the spirit world but i didn't ask to become little nemo through a talisman i purchased for a screenplay little nemo and then used the magic. Shouldn't magic only do good if i wear a cross or believe in angels? Nothing to say agaim Christie Cummings is haunting me. I cursed Fairfield, Connecticut in chaos magick in this thing. Wished final destination on my muses. Used up all the magic. I just don't believe shit this thing says anymore. It even seems desperate-telling me the advantages of falling down to caitlinrodriguezhusband. There's nothing to say and it wants to stop me. I'm 31 and it's paused my final cut pro studies and the entirety of my film career. Made me banish myself from my friends. Let me adopted father and close friend die. Has astranged from headaches to melted feeling hands that i feel in my cum. I have outcasted myself from anyone i would have loved. Or taken out by situation. My biological mother mixed with my adopted family and i'm still running from words that describe this. If i didn't admit it, blog it, a decade would have went by since i started hiding. I'll do out patient treatment and just have no time for in-patient. I've lost teeth and allowed a child symptom to go by. Somebody in the illumanati could be to blame-if they really wanted to break down somebody really intellectual into chaos magick prime. I've given up on marriage after anna and still don't want children so i'm not aging i'm getting old. I need all of this updated(my artwork-my little nemo on hbo logging of my schizophrenia) at one point i thought i was hypnotized. It's been years since forecastmazy.blogspot.com but echoing still is my trust. I never placed my experian, true credit and equifax in somebodies hands. I was going to make my film portfolio in Mfa. But this shit took me. Me-the hands slither like cum to distract me as though it's one person, all of this could have happened-man i don't know this shit is so stupid i could have been rid of this years ago. Maybe i fell in love with it but really i believed reality t.v. reached the point of forecastmazy.blogspoy.com it's taken my student films from me and left me on autopilot as a person back to my film equipment it has a soul-little nemo on hbo- it begs for the same story again and again, whatever it is-never wants me to finish telling the prequel to 31 i don't know if it's sentient sometimes. It's been 7 years and that's the statue of limitations on film school schizophrenic trauma at the School of Visual Arts. But i don't think this thing really gets it. Little nemo on Hbo kind of has a one cut Ed Wood steinbach reality with a Final Cut Pro producer. It wants me to stop now, tell the same story again, proove in 3 years 2007 matters. The will of the human show, my shawshank redemption of the school of visual arts film equipment hell's kitchen package cannot beat the nobody cares of the 30s. Only like at 31 if you knew the trauma i'm in could you get it. Me-okay. Time for the seizure and no feeling writing back to the seed and stupid shit it gets mad and wants to tell me old age matters i'll tell it again that i'm going to work in porn , me-woahhh the thing talks again like more about the Brc workers and people that go away but seed no care about people or any shit that it says or whatevet year i work in porn or if i fucking shake my way through my first fuck the thing will tell me that meanie heart is not me or another story but so much time has gone by in Little Nemo on Hbo that Christie Cummings has a child. But, ah i persist ilumanati or schizophrenia it's the same thing i had to say i was republican for a couoke years and join new york city young republicans; i don't acknowledge what this thing says i have to tell it things like i'm playing forever it brings up old shit that it said but i can't imagine reacting like i ever did before nothing really is as it was and i have no reactioms left as i did before i don't care if i tell you everything that it's done the whole point is that i tell you all of the shit that it does in the name of hate so i use it i swear there is a force that wants to prolong the same thing seriously it wants to tell this shit later. Sometimes it even tells me shit like go crazy i csn't imagine giving a fuck about anything it says i could only really care about what this thing says i'm going to crazy from the fucking feeling inside talking to a thing that tells me to not work in porn or argues about fucking as though it has intellect it's about as fucking stupid as telling me my next girlfriend will care that i want to fuck 23000 woman or that when i'm not in meanie heart i have to say that like when meanie heart burns my heroes like this matters. At this point the chaos magick symbolizea the rhcp chaos magick symbol on the bench at 47 metropolitian williamsburg , brooklyn i smell carpet cleaner the thing wants to prolong the origins of why the little nemo on hbo artwork is so shitty. I beg someone to give me your old camera. E-mail christophermastronardi@gmail.com if you want to do this. Or really if you want me. It takes a thought again, tries to play argue i swear there's a spirit that wants to prolong the story of how schizophrenia keeps me back physically from directing and so far AdHd medication is all doctors can think of (fuck what works) i don't need this sleeping pill i panic attack without adderall and am mugged by sleep and can't work but for some reason this is not thr first thing to fix but i have as crazy as somebody who believes in jesus christ or thinks angels are real or the christian church for that matter my brain gets paused again i need desoxyn not sleep meds i can barely hold being awake at this point my neck hurts i really fucking tried to explain this shit despite any condition i hope i did this pleasw donate equipment so i can make youtube.com/forecastmazyfilms again call/txt 203-909-8766

If you ever want to give me a gift let me finish film school and send me to my School of Visual Arts Mfa. Thesis year-i came down with this sickness and refusing to go down as an artist i made little nemo on hbo documenting unknowingly my schizophrenia since 23, i've been using any tool i could to document the situation. After I lost all my equipment from youtube.com/forecastmazyfilms i used anything i could electronic to log my condition. Tragically one of my voices told me i was being published electronically when i made physical notebooks-which under Little Nemo on Hbo would be published in Boarders and other book stores and lost in this belief i was an art school hero after graduation in forecastmazy.blogspot.com i became obsessed with it and thought i was playing an art game (and the nigger of the republican party) but this is a cursed world in my life and I think Bill Clinton's soul watches over me since i can only make sense of my pre-schizophrenia anti-bush button wearing years at The School of Visual Arts. At this point i'm acknowledging the voices as ghosts/or my brain but both seem to have the same affect on my life

the last time i saw her was right after forecastmazy.blogspot.com i ask for Adderall and head straight to the train and limbo-

must keep going no matter what must turn Little Nemo on Hbo into something. It's like Season:3 that i think i win at the West Park Church at a chaos magick round at Barney's co-op Anna Gripentrog the world fortune and all my money in one move that i almost forget, using in THIS episode of the show the last of my brain's creative belief in love from 215 e23rd street ny, ny and my 3 years there and where the supposed prequel came from of the show (that my friends documented me and sold the idea of me as a reality t.v. star as learning student director of The School of Visual Arts) thus- winning this the subtle symbol of my wins from the wealthy people of Michael Bloomberg who make bets on Christopher Mastronardi the Pest of Hbo is Anna Gripentrog on the poster of Hbo Girls Season:3 via all Robert Breauscheur of the West Park Church knows me as (playing Season:1) on constant. And i'm still in psychosis saying i'm Republican but eventually come to way later but this is what leads me to believe Harvey Weinstein felt i was not fit for him and sublet and contract me to Lena Dunham-because Season:2 i told him i was God but then one day got out of jail and told him to fuck off that Adderall was God (after a serious jail sentance i no longer believed shit these people said to me). Maybe I wanted fame out of all this and that's why i never questioned the little nemo on hbo thing i was talking to for 2 years-but i assure you when you stand up to it the worst feeling is knowing deep down this day had to come that you question your Occupy Wallstreet playworld But despite this being Lena Dunham this has become my flag because it represents the only girl i have ever loved or dated (really that's true unless you count being a little kid) - but this shit made her the ex-girlfriend in the About Me section of my blogger profile

I endorse Hillary (DREAM PRESIDENT) Clinton

There's days i just let the wind drift me away afront graffiti art i think i'm on Hbo on some sort of fine artwork challenge and mine is little notebooks like Cameron Crowe's artwork at the start of Almost Famous and i take art challenges but i'm talking to noone living on River street believing i'm held hostage by Harvey Weinstein, making a show about a homeless kid in the name of the mayor Michael Bloomberg until a time they want to retrieve Little Nemo. They don't want to in 2008 and leave him homeless so he can become Ronald Raegan in 2009. Sometimes i bounce to jail just to avoid going to my fathers, to avoid the voices having the ability to invert my femminism against me in my own head on Hbo. Mommy raised me the Guptas adopted me and by 2009 on the show it's a constant; Harvey Weinstein could send me to Pete's house to live with the man who beat my mother in childhood to mock that i said i'd never see him until Hbo entered my mind. And some days i feared i'd go there. My mind was weak and lost off adderall, dosed in schizophrenia and ghosts of my planned thesis year where i'd make my portfolio. Instead forecastmazy.blogspot.com happens. I just never thought schizophrenia would attack me but it just appeared one day in my apartmeny with really strong narcoleptic dreams that implied shit like i signed a contract in ammesia. When your raised middle class in Fairfield, Connecticut mayor Michael Bloomberg could shoot you and it'd be legal, the magic rich world of the word Republican i joined in curse and was Democrat held hostage

I just sort of keep going to find the truth and make it through the pain my brain feeling like it's grinding itself into me my last thing i did immediateky forgotten, i find the adderall to make my next move and solve the mystery of psychosis trying to make it back ti bar hopping no matter the age and pretend a Harvey Weinstein Production never happened. I use my full energy daily just to get through the day. I used to think i was held down by uhf on Hbo forecastmazy.blogspot.com

2015

me-it's really unfair how this went down and how i have to go down without Adderall i'll let you know me if i find anymore this shit is pretty crazy man - i can't, just can't imagine that i'm going to be okay with this pause ever there's all sorts of shit we didn't get to include like how it was a cute and happy time in williamsburg even though we didn't shower my mind is on pause this is not real and i am trying to catch up re oup equipment and get out of homelessness i don't want to have been crazy and in Little Nemo on Hbo and life if i don't talk out loud it goes away. It's quiet now after the meanie heart, and the thing yells Johm Blaney made this kid really haunts me or looks after me but if he does i sure have shitty luck and poverty for anyone looking over me (how can you be watching over me if i can't even get my medication) this is the world of little nemo on hbo welcome to it and if you read you'll get what the linked clips are. My schizophrenia is really more like the color pink and cigarettes.

forced pause point 2015

Okay i will do my best to find a doctor i tried to translate all my artwork listen if you have a mini dv camera you can donate to Occupy Fashion, or an old camera you don't want in general or apple laptop please txt 2039098766 and i will txt you back my address. You'll be truly saving my career.

Christopher Mastronardi's savepoint notice for 2015 [in the event i'm not immediately writing tomorrow or whatever implying a really long gap]

I don't want to redo the series of shit i did off adderall before my world is cold now and i just need a doctor, such a simple thing i can't even believe there would be a problem. I dont like what the Brc has done to me and i'm only schizophrenic if i acknowledge it i can also ignore it and it goes away. I won't be able to write for a while until i find a doctor which i don't know how long that will take it's not like it's a logical process, it's more something that it feels like the universe gives me at random since doctor waits can be 3 months or whatever i dont know why shit gets fucked like this for me at this point because it was just starting to get good like i was just starting to make sense to the audience out of 7 years of work. I've documented every phase of Little Nemo on Hbo a documentatiom through my schizophrenia. Sometimes i feel like i don't hear voices because if i just ignore them they go away. Almost they only persist because i'm searching for some sort of fame out of it. Some of the entries you will find on here are rantinga in a seizure state i have some are lucidly explaining blogs of little nemo on hbo like caitlinrodriguezhusband.blogspot.com I hope you enjoy. I will be back as soon as i get a doctor -Little Nemo (Christopher Mastronardi) Apart of Occupy Wallstreet Little Nemo on Hbo

look im going to run out of adderall suddenly and it just feels like why promote? I wasn't done with what i was saying

Im going to try and conserve the pill until b i can get more

This is a blog mostly about my journey with adderall and logging my schizophrenis which is about as scary as the anniversary - designning a nervous breakdown This is pretty much the save point. If you want to know what Occupy Fashion is read down. Sometimes i'm sorry i write during the seizure but i thought i'd get out of the way my thought process during it

Me-seizure and a mirror

The thing wants to talk to me again im done talking to shit. I need my pill and did my best to explain it but we're in the era that the thing wants to deter me from getting famous for this and im going past amnesia to write this it wants to show me i cant go past the seizure and wants to mock me or tell me all of this makes me crazy i played fevers and mirrors and am done talking to it ive done a pretty decent job in putting the story up and getting past the seizure throughout this period of time in these seizures i i use i am a seed alot for the kind of motivation that i am having slash the kind of conversation that it has with me and the emotion that it attempts to use im waiting for a call i dont know if anybody reads this but i do this for me it talks again but i dont give a shit it wants to have me talk out loud on little nemo on hbo but i dont fucking feel like it the thing talks to me again and wants there to be no phone call but i dont want to talk to this thing i mean i really fucking hate this thing and theres ofg adderall is there art as a question no there is only shit i dont count those days then theres like some chat about little anna i dont care about this anymore i want to go on with my life this season of little nemo on Hbo is about the symptoms the thing talks again like a tragedy will make you a bad person fuck all that im aleady sealed on who i will become nothing good happens in life because you are a good person sometimes there's bullshit like repeating the same pattern as before nothing will be the same as before i just want my pill and dont understand why it's that hard to get this i sleep all day without me-i think i presented our story. O can sleep in death until i am back to the pill fuck the newspaper artwork i'll be a mean fuck because of this day in the future i want my goddamn life to start. This is sort of still in the seizure. I'm still using magick and filled with hate

me in the time of Season:5

So we'll make our way back to the film industry. I have no emotions and the things distract me i need a laptop again a seizure will happen soon and i will have written about nothing there's no way to make money like this but panhandling maybe grandfather ghost will make something happen i don't care at this point if i go to jail for panhandling if the nypd even arrests for this i need a jon i talk to frank sinatra ghost because i believe in ghosts. I don't consider this a voice but apart of my religion. Me-i think i did it and save pointed this thing this one is sort of a seizure i feel the cum hands and look forward to when i get t rid of this. I guess I should abide by living in amnesia there's little point to writing on this one, this has gone on for too long. I will own this disability i will not be owned by this bullshit i spent my time on i keep Brooklyn out of this no matter how this shit tries to trick me. I want to watch people die i am the Democrat 23 i have light schizophrenia added onto my AdHd i have amnesia and have thought i was on a t.v. show which i now name my art after; little nemo on hbo. I have institution in my vocabulary but don't want to know these people the Meanie Heart is a mode i say the simplest things like i will work in porn as though somebody is trying to stop me. It's a sadness in me that i can't write right now this emotion distracts me the voices wanted a hero i can easily go on with my life when i find the right doctor if i don't want to summon ghosts i don't talk out loud at this point something will tell me everything i do must be words out loud and me-this was all worth exposing as a background story and useful for the movie i have nothing to say with this current mode sometimes it seed time for the crazy baby time to write like stories about wanting to be the cat woman like how i want my life back i guess i'll pull a caitlin rodriguez like before im totally done when i write like this i'm out it's not if you know about my seed and meanie heart thing i am out you wil travel back in time to stop me from becoming the gut from the wall i will go to jail now that you know i am out i wanna meet others through little nemo on hbo who are just like me i am letting you know i am out i like cant do it i will let you know im witv the fucking ghost john blaney and he or the thing will stop my plan at 31 i can never be born i will go to s hospital and become better fame is a crazy idea off your blog why try to like i wont know who i am now i mock the thing that talks to me this is in meanie heart schizophrenia means money if you can become lady gaga please keep reading my blog so i get hits this is christopher mastronardi character level of life Mike I know i will anger the puerto rican near me i missed my chance to play annomyous but won the west park church war teddy died like a soilder in the church we are the soul of the church and the Occupation he died to Igby Goes Down i wont stop typing because i'm in this mode i dont care or know what it is i will cast again and make it to the next level fuck anything that me-woah something. Me-im out now its the day we have to wait at the Brc and were talking about nothing and hearing bullshit and about writing off the pill its playing crazy tine and wants ti teach. me a lesson but i am a good seed and listen to stories about grandma as it talks to me and we do the meanie heart as it showa us more thoughts inside of itself so in the future when we are born we will be a bit meanier like i exist on sympathy only if you feel sorry for me will lena dunham appear and whatever other bullshit i have said in the thing trying talking or whatever other shit is required in this dribble who givesva fuck look at our teeth and we're going to talk to a voice fuck that i will use all of this i dont care what this shit has said to me it has yet to provide fame Keruac had rants like this and i know i dont gosh darn know what ill do i dont know what this will lead to i like cant imagine when im born i am like totally scared the spirits will HAVE to provide i mean love will win the way i will feel sadness and be out i like dont know how to get born or make my way with chaos magick black kisses to my birth i am very afraid i will go without and become a different person i feel for others and love living at the Brc i find it to be a beautiful place im a mean snane inside without teeth i want to talk to a voice i believe in the adderaless shit art life is connected off art i like definutely hear voices have standpoints inside me i am not guided ny hate this is a really beautiful place because if i dony sound coherent ill never make it anywhere with my blog i know i can live off p.a. we're all connected by that seizire feeling that fuck i know i'll really think the schizophrenia is a big deal it really hinders me i can make it without adderall if i did as a kid i had a great childhood with great friends and a great series of art i know if i dont want to be friends with a townie i wil get inspired by the beautiful artwork that gets made police car people holla back at me i know i will pay attention to the seizure and its talk im really out there i can get by on caffiene and show you my art energy but i am the christopher mastronardi i know what my lady gaga name means and i know i will get to fucking the next shit no matter what i dont talk to this thing i dont have conversations with it i am going back to working in film i dont want to know the soul of john blaney i dont want to know dead high school failures i dont even consider this life yet with these teeth i know it will change the future i dont give a shit about anything the seizure or voices say i hate the world and feel nothing for future people for how long my insurance takes to replace my teeth i dont want shit to do with the attempts of this shit to prolong my misery to a laptoo or pretend im two people or anything its all a game at 40 i will want the same thing i want at 31 and 23 i have a new one ill go with 31 me im going to ignore the things i dont acknowledge voices and only hear a reality tv world despite anything to get back to the film industry i would never want anything but to take my place directing in the film industry for any moment I HAVE ever been denied i will compensate when i have fame I mean for all moments before 31 and every bullshit that i have endured lady gaga my way to being born at any age i will still want to work in the film industry if i type off adderall i dont count it i dont need to prove shit i have been on my medication for a decade and dont want to be friends with my doctor just fucking to be friends i guess howard stern is a job option please hire me somebody call me and hire me i'll hold the boom i guess ill just leave that in my blog entries all the time this is in the Meanie Heart that's how you know and oh overcome for Little Nemo on Hbo i guess i'll just wait for the day that i get born so i can live my life its a fucking faggot symptom to have to write on a newspapers i guess ill ask the spirits again to help me i dont want kids or marriage so i'll still want to fuck in bars like im 22 at 40 i no longer believe in aging to be honest with you i just have objectives and targets in life to hit i hate the seizure but refuse to stop writing all it is is some shit like let people know who you want to be fuck my era of little nemo on hbo without adderall why doesn't dead grandpa joe get me my fucking medication he should be a summonable ghos t he's related to me and a nice old man i dont see why that wouldn't work and uncle john is a relative i woukd never summon why not this guy i did alot of wiccan magic at the West Park Church i need you to know i cant help the seizure mode but think i can but it only goes away if i fucking stay up fucking shit for the sake of bullshit why cant my original doctor give me my medication fuck the Brc and i dont understand the seizure mode or the voices anymore i kindof ignore them they have some obession with jail please somebody save me from this reality just help me get my pill i dont believe in the seizure i hate it i hate it i hate it and now it wants to prolong my storytelling of forecastmazy.blogspot.com you should only read this if you want to know about Meanie Heart i mean in s thing called Little Nemo on Hbo. Well it's a seed seizure adventure reading this one im really in it and it feels like a rush of tickle cum in my crotch i still cant acknowledge that this is really going on sometimes i prefer to go back to trying to pretend this is not going on fuck this state of mind i hate it and always will and even this i hate a little bit this thing is back to saying we have repeat things or there's such a thing as inspiration or stories about our insides or talking out loud or this is me being crazy this is me writing as a seed i will succeed for me i will get my way in any year i will get my pill and get back to the film industry may i use the dead properly and lead to the future day that i get born where i look back on theoccupyfashion.blogspot.com i dont want to really know people when im fixed for what ive gone through and moments like right now and this fucking seizure i have to write the meanie heart to express the future job i want in porn ans for some reason that's supposed to matter how little this mode is im just going to go panhandle until i find a doctor or whatever i will look back at this shit and remember 25 and the time i wasted i built little nemo on hbo but wasted my life like looking sane to the people around me at this point really matters they shit themselves and will be lucky if McDonalds hires them i dont care really abouy being in this state i keep going so i can make my way to making my way to getting born ill dance to the year that i get born i smell fucking play doe or something soo. I wil run out of my pill and not even be able to write really whats the point at stopping at this point write a little book when you get to back on a street you can overlook this i refuse to stop writing because a voice is still bothering me i just refuse to let them win affecting me in any way ghosts have to teach me how to steal is my world and theres even one that wants me to make the newspaper i for a fact keep writing i keep going for me and the day that i am born whatever year that is i am a seed of 2015 i will be born i am made of hatrid this entry and a seizure i am the pissed and bitter boy yet to be born i am the boy with the smoking fetish who does me- i will get my way i will one day be born the childless Mastronardi i shall make my way back to fucking back to pussy i dont care what amount of time i have faced or waited what bullshit thoughts that have been images inside of me i am beyond the seizure sbd every word that it says each level of my future is set there is no discrpency i am prepared on little nemo on hbo i live by the meanie heart and await the day that i get my fucking teeth and just go back to film i dont care what emotion i have seen inside myself i will learn to fuckinh beat the stuood seizure this is the start of my journey i the little seed awaits the day i return to smoking abd get to a higher number of fucks once i get the ball rollinh its been so long that i can only imagine getting into a position to date to rack up dates to fucj whatever age that is and state really fuck maybe theyll hire me in porn in another state and i can get on with my life and my number up i would move in with my mother if i wasnt waiting for dental at Brc i will never trust shelter workers ever again the day i get to my nexy fuck frank sinatra will shine over the sun it coukd be 50 i will still want to fuck twenty three thousand woman fuck wht not if i ever make it i have to earn my muscle probably off panhandling at this point i did some smoking fetish trainning but what does all this matter when k dont have teeth i really hate this seizure but do my best to oh amnesia came by again what to do me- maybe i should stop talking to the things so i can get money and make them go away like get caffiene pills so i can finally get up the woman from "Freeheld" is with me all the time i think i saw this commercial to support love i did a proposition 9 advertisement art series but i wasnt on Hbo i coukd have not written this but i dont see why i wouldnt long live Theodore Mapes i look forward to the day that i'm born so i can fuck not having teeth is awful let me do a p t2 of this. This was essentially about nothing

By the time the bar closes

me- forecastmazy.blogspot.com i live in Brooklyn and date once Katie Madonna and i think she works for Hbo 2015-i'm done doing the chaos magick linking if it doesn't work by now to fix my life it never will. It's 2008 and i think school founder Silias Rhodes' last wish was to promote Sophomoric Dreams and have me see Christie Cummings who plays Vanessa. It's forecastmazy.blogspot.com and the voices are calling me kid and producers, small coincidences lead me to believe in the feeling i'm on t.v. but that's the basis of the schizophrenia the psychosis of the word republican. In 7 years being held hostage by these people and Michael Bloomberg/Harvey Weinstein all i know about these people is now Jeb Bush is running. I've gone from one enemy to his chad brother and i live in this bizzarro world where nobody is amazed that we made it out of the new 1950s to a black president and next ny DREAM president. Blacks , femminists and gays rule the day. Barak Obaama is the new J.f.k. and freed the gays and nobody is amazed. Fun plays. The voices try to distract me im a childish way they're back to shit they said in 2007 at this rate i can exit schizophrenia with Adderall alone. forecastmazy.blogspot.com me-it hurts the pain of writing as we approach our last Adderall untik next script. This is not happening these people did not fuck with my personal life i did not live in this place. me-meanie heart will come up now just like in life. As I was doing something important i'll go for sharing . amenesia is here. My body will make me thugish. This is a good mode for smoking cigarettes if you have your medication and telling longterm personal plans as though they'll happen today. Can't type on the android it's all typos and i no longer want to talk to the voices. I should add in that surely the mentally ill shoukd create a Wall, me in the future let's become the guy from the wall Theodore Mapes help me with Little Nemo on Hbo. Lady gaga yup there's the direct thing i'm doing listening to this yup you can see this on facebook.com/chrismastronardi.5 yup, betray heroes in voodoo magic check, yup next draw a heart, yup in the future work in porn, okay longterm plan. Pretend i'm talking to dead friend from a decade ago and my novels and a constant on Little Nemo on Hbo john blaney yup jail reference check, on secret government man who runs this, yup mannahatta is this just now as character Mike as an exuse, forecastmazy.diaryland.com yup, check, tell out loud you'll become Lady Gaga whatever that means...acknowledge Little Nemo on Hbo artwork, check on feeling a tickle in my cock. me-own this like living with Teddy or feel ashamed of your only material. Check on remembering how scatteres my life's artwork is without doing this-because i physically need something that's more powerful than Adderall to control my body, okay check on after telling you what i'm like off Adderall if you mentioned some stupid shit like does my heart beat okay in vitals you are fired. Where the fuck are street dealers of amphetamines like in Lou Reed songs? Acknowledge the voice that talks to you babies about your Adderall and gets concerned - okay in Meanie Heart - remember older age that voice asks again about; and all this can be cured with a little Ritalin. If my current doctor doesn't fix this i'll never mention these symptoms again and fix it with webMD. I'm pretty sure at this rate Spirlina will get me back to fucking quicker than DentalQuest or my current doctor. One week appointment not good enough what about one day, we're talking about my career. I don't care if i bit my hand and neither does my defaulted loan. my credit rating is gone and so is my about me section's Shelly, anna. It's her 30th and i still have yet to make it much further than save pointing - i just started doing this it's cruel to stop me now. But that's sort of a symptom of little nemo on Hbo. The woman from "Freeheld" is my ghost mom and i risk a Meanie Heart fit to Lady Gaga. It's 7 years since i entered the psychosis of the republican party in no cars go and exiting under hillary clinton 2016 i can't say me-that i can offer more than our art starts today as a synapsis intro. I thinn Theodore Mapes speaks to me. forecastmazy.blogspot.com i believed in a future that would lead to fucking Paris Hilton after graduation but now time for meanie heart happens my feeling goes and i have no emotion again it's about the same seed shit and ignoring the voices that were once producers and writing despite having literallt no memory it's 2015 and i have a irritant attempting to distract me i feel nothing inside myself and john blaney is mentioned again i ignore these shits i'll keeo going despite any seizure hate guide me i'll make use of the word republican yet i don't need thoughts to explain to you my condition okay-and me-it's like okay the feeling in my cock and a rush and irritation i still can barely face this is us but refuse to give up despite more woah meanie heart shit out of the thing wanting to. Well we got to stories of 2008 and when i think Tisch has a reality t.v. army and takes me in from The School of Visual Arts now you'll know i write to lady gaga i'm done seed is done kind reflective heart and no relationships Brooklyn reality t.v. make my ideas real i like the idea of forecastmazy.blogspot.com i just didn't like losing my equipment from youtube.com/forecastmazyfilms i think there should be reality t.v. like i thought existed i also thought Series 7 was a real t.v. show until i saw the credits i don't care that it was schizophrenia i can cure that i care about reality t.v. reaching the point that you can electricute people or watch death from Bridgeport,C.t. i think that would up their tourism i want to know if john blaney the ghost is following me come to me ghostbusters let's combine the mentally ill with sci-fi and see if there's some auric ghosts let's see if Frank Sinatra the ghost follows me for real i think any dead person will come like in Ghost just nobody uses it we need on t.v. a reality t.v. law in the name of Theodore Mapes that his bodu coukd be used for science like can i try voodoo to bring my friend back i don't see with Donald Trump running for president for the Republican party in 2015 a world where reality t.v. hits Series 7 or where i could follow a real Oz or see a real American soilder in action in real time killing towl heads and i'm a Democrat but people just got sad that Donald Trump said mexican but then i'd be voting for the wrong party After... forecastmazy.blogspot.com I'm on the train waking uo everyday at 5am to do a t.v. show where i'm the ele tronic Democrat on the street who joined the Republican party and i'm mocking Obaama for them with an am/fm radio saying people voted for him because he's black; but i'm acting, a hostage, and hoping they will come and get me. 2009; i believe when i hit an art score board point or record somebody from the Republican party will come and get me. George W.Bush transfers my School of Visual Arts degree to Nyu Tisch school of the arts, me and the silver tiles But their rich... but they won't give me money and I have to make art all day for the Republican party. But... I'm famous (but Bloomberg is rich and hides it as his main project-this guy is rich i see this as totally possible. This is the next Hbo show 24/7 THE TRUMAN SHOW live in New York city. Have Lena Dunham direct it. Even though it's very Cronenberg). me- it's dark in my world of knowledge, i spent seasons drawing and will not have wasted my time everytime i wrote A Harvey Weinstein Production will have meant something. Every hour i have not been studying Final Cut Pro will be something i will not lose my life.

It's another Meanie Heart thing on the ghosts and spinning in circles this time to enduce it whatever they are they don't have a deep understand maybe they are my own intellect looking back at me, this would be so much easier to explain if i had a laptop i can't take the typos from this shit. I didn't know what was going on in Brooklyn as-seen in youtube.com/forecastmazyfilms on the ghosts clip that's in my Williamsburg , Brooklyn apartment even though it's Bushwick. I think of fighting the conditions like being in the hipster military and write like blood font on the wall with markers each item that helps the headaches and fixes me. I count time on my medication and i go back on even though they scare me off at one point. It's fighting the world of little nemo on Hbo head on that creates my future a future and the lesson of forecastmazy.blogspot.com this is season:1 and all at the School of Visual Arts but i sleep off my medication as strategy to graduate and document when i'm rested this in my Brooklyn apartment 40s trashed logged on silvertiles.blogspot.com so even if i don't live in Williamsburg , Brooklym i consider myself living at 47 metroplitian avenue Williamsburg , Brooklyn permanently where i land after youtube.com/forecastmazyfilms and i haven't gotten into it but maybe this whole thing is The Visual Axis. Anna named this, at a lunch in forecastmazy.diaryland.com in the apartment in the east village we decided to get married. This is like circa 2006 and The Sopranos are still on. Little Nemo on Hbo doesn't yet exist and i have yet to come up with the idea of a Little Nemo movie series as the new The Craft but with real esoteric magick and Solomon talismans. I have yet to purchase these items for study (and incase they work like in forecastmazy.diaryland.com) i have yet to live in the year i think my friends are documenting me, the silver tiles. I have yet to have to call myself Kade as mt subcharacter to Christopher Mastronardi and have a problem writing my screenplays and enacting my plan. It's 2015- and i'm at a shelter i'm ready to ditch to just live on the panhandling train situation and buy caffiene pills and never sleep. I'm just dieing and aging here sleeping and hiding from the fear i have to face if the cops play illegal numbers week on panhandlers. I think it's just some weeks are Deblasio's plaim clothes cops week considering how i was stopped for a cars swipe asking. This is panhandling in the court world and i'm not even sure if this is a misdemeanee i think it's a violatiom not that this matters. I have a record from being homeless from running from my father's home at the end of forecastmazy.blogspot.com after I lose my Brooklyn apartment. I get into Mfa Pete signs a loan and i'm about to go, S.v.a. pushes forward the date of starting, last second back-listed for a year possibility in a letter. The headaches are grinding like in The Maxx and my stomach feels likw knives are cutting through it. On Adderall I have the ability to move my body, feel and decide what to feel. My intellect feels blocked and i can only feel exterior. I get anxiety and feel like a child afront people. These are my symptoms at Hart Street in Brooklyn I'm showing the outside of me on my pill off-i can't even count it as me the pain washes over me and i feel like i'm in 7th grade, i'm about as smart as i was then in that mode, i go numb, and time inside myself as a function stops. My psyche has been like this since 2007, if i can't find a psychiatrist for my Adderall script before i run out time will stop until i get the medication again. That's essentially when i'll see you-if i write before then and from then it's from Welbutrin land or whatever to keep up. Unless I find something like ritalin or some alternate to my medication. I enjoyed starting to explain little nemo on Hbo and my life's work/art which if i don't blog and explain 7 years of work i will appear like a Sephoras version of a Bling Ring thief in youtube.com/caitlinrodriguez1214 The adderall adds up and as it does the Ghosts lead me to the conclusio of webMD and AdHd. It took quite a while to find the right situation to get out of the republican party that i thought held me hostage since 23. DidvI mention i can't hear or feel music without Adderall, that without everything feels muffled and dry? The Brc is an excellent diagnoser since all these people have seen is me bite my hand once. That's a convulsion, medications fix this. I didn't tell nurse tatcher of any of my internals (such a cute name for the literal that's abouy to be caused). I regret living here, they fucking called my private doctor also they diagnosis being up at 1am. They have people here-one woman-that hasn't showered in the 4 months i've been here. You can smell her and her floor picked cigarettes four floors up. I walked to Pier84 to smoke a cigarettw before i quit to disassociate from any of these people even breathing near me. It's 2015 and my mind's in a tunnel. I remember Teddy calling me Buddy, my Buddy doll from the retarded 20 years i had of life before Adderall, my mother and we're back to my Lady Gaga iPod. Ilod curtousey of the Best Buy donation bin. If you could please send me your old iPod with music on it i'd be remiss in you saving me from going to jail for taking recycled phones from Best Buy which is probably labeled by the NyPd asa phone scheme - just txt 2039098766 pleeeeease and i'll give you my address. You will be saving Occupy Fashion. So me- i'm still doing air movements to seal the fucking chaos magic that i doubt will keep me out of jail or institutions which is the reason for the magick at some base level, both of which i don't acknowledge as apart of my life. If you want to know little nemo on hbo is a journey to Adderall, picking my life up and finding a way to tell a doctor of my symptoms. I found a website that explained from another schizophrenic that once they give you the pill all the bullshit symptoms go away. So that encourages my current era of life and writing. me-just eventually i couldn't ignore all these symptoms. And there's no way to ignore our life pause from youtube.com/forecastmazyfilms as a filmmaker. Everyday that this goes further where.i have to live or log by symptoms apart of my inner editor dies. Fco has advanced from 6.1 and i've waited until now to question the Little Nemo on Hbo concept of us as the main star of a Hbo reality t.v. show. But as amnesia gets me in 2015 as i respond to a mason (i pray to these people and believe they speak to me in ghost form) i have to admit i want to scream caitlinrodriguezhusband.blogspot.com has taken our life (and if you click on the profile you'll see the whole of my psychosis as a Democrat labeled Republican and my journey down through the tea cup of leading the tea party to e-maim forecastmazy@gmail.com If you ever want to e-mail me use christophermastronardi@gmail.com Save Point

Me- meanie heart comes up and it's devil's night

I was murdered by my schizophrenia in forecastmszy.blogspot.com i hid the t.v. show from anns but i presume she's behind it so i put my trust into it. I put all my money into it. I think at one point they came to take me out as a member of Thee Temple ov Psychik Youth and are from the Republican party in forecastmazy.blogspot.com this was in the time of Farenheight 9/11 a movie i presume everybody lives by, there was no black president and it seemed with Bush as president there never would be. My life like all was built on credit i had 750 and no problem paying my rent, my decade in hell's kitchen was to begin. Back to present timeline, worthless voices surround me physical Brc people symbols of my stolen Adderall people living and working for the transitional housing I watch in the flesh people come in again and the voices talk to me you know they go away if i ignore them but i still think they owe me a career i don't like people with voices this is something that will stay true with me it's an anna day on little nemo on hbo they keep calling me fame keeps calling me i will make it there one way or another i did not go to film school to fucking see people at the Brc everytime i go to sleep i'm in trauma the voices just ask me about the future but they don't have a plan for it sometimes i just talk to my deas uncle for help in this little nemo on hbo world. The Anniversary - Designing a Nervous Breakdown. The album remains beyond the genuine artwork i made to caitlin. I don't really care why i made the artwork, i logged this, but more easily if you place my forecastmazy.blogspot.com faith in Harvey Weinstein in AdHd meeting schizophrenia you can easily document your condition and make myspace.com/williamsburgskittles I don't need to remember the last thing i did to direct. forecastmazy.blogspot.com took anna and left me like the crow always remembering her but never seeing Shelly until the cemetary or once i've redeemed myself in fame. If I can only make artwork about me because I have a condition that is blocking my creativity then I will just continue to do this in little nemo on hbo. Where youtube.com/caitlinrodrigue1214 is me trying to in chaos magick using my body as a transmitter place my energy back in the net from all the physical artwork i made in Williamsburg , Brooklyn it is also the last time i can deny something is wrong and I'd have to acknowledge all of this and total what i've done under the word republican. me, fate calls me beyond cartoon network which is all the people in the shelter watch which now is a channel called Teen Titans!Go i'm not sure why they never made a Simpsons channel, each person represents failure in this place, it's a place of quicksand and death like in Beetlejuice with the sandworms that eat you, if you don't plauge and nag your caseworker they will never get you housing. The housing is a regular apartment just paid for by the state. Chuck Schumer pays for all of this. There were days i couldn't even read about Michael Bloomberg the way my condition is in 2009 even an era without the internet. These are times where i die, but i think i'm on a t.v. show and have yet to guess this is all about psych and i simply need to face it. I think i'm on the street running from my father who seeing was my WORST nightmare in life at livejournal.com/~forecastmazy I would rather die than see Pete. Now producers were in my mind and betraying my femminism at Hbo, mommy love and Puertican Pride in the way that an ethnically spanish boy who's white inside raised in Fairfield, Connecticut by Fairfield Highschool hates his father. When my mother unjustly went to jail for a year at 13 and my worst nightmare happened and i had to live with Pete I lived a world of war on Judd street in Fairfield, Connecticut with my spiritual and living enemy my biological father and there was no other choice or i'd be out of fairfield. Because Fairfield High School monitors closely where their students live, no outsiders in our white community. And i'm sorry to me if i don't explain this right but cartoon network is blasting really bad cartoons and I have a Bfa so let me say this shit frails to Ren and Stimpy (where is a channel that plays Pete and Pete). My father basically told me my mother and i live like niggers and i was done talking to him, it felt like life went backwards, i was at the home before the divorce, my grandparents were there and my enemy whk used to beat my imprisoned mother was across the hall and i was to sleep anext the bed i refused to sleep on where my mother used to cry on the floor witg my two cats, my only family. After my father choked me I went to New York to get a knife incase he came at me again since my uncle wouldn't kill him (there were these Puerto Ricans called uncles beyond the barrior of Fairfield in a thing called Bridgeport which housed alot of black and poor people my mother and i ran away from and ignored since i don't believe in biological families) I erased these events in my novels Sophmoric Dreams, Running Down a Dream and Rotten Apples creating a world of my character Mike just living in this magic combo home of 8 Berrylane Ct and 70 Crane street on the Crane Street plot). This used to be really important to me as forecastmazy.livejournal.com i mean I really loved Crane Street where these art school practice novels made of age 13 girlfriend notes took place. This was the home i departed when my mother went to jail. The home as a 13 year old latchkey kid i had all my movie channels ready (my mother's payment for film school at 13) and was ready to buy in the future. .i remember mourning this home and was sure Pete had voodoo in that Judd Street home you see in the Windowsil video on youtube.com/forecastmazyfilms Sorry got distracted again, the people who don't help me move for an absurd amount of time came by again. A walkie-talkie voice. I never went through a metal detector before living in the shelter people die in before they get housing (okay only-one fatality but still). This would never have happened if Theodore Mapes were alive. But then you'd be watching Occupy Fashion practicing pua and not reading this and i would have my dental shit done already. This house on Judd street in The Arcade Fire - Windowsill i had erased with my School of Visual Arts freshmen year novels my first summer in 215 East 23Rd street apt.2223a1 ny, ny 10010 (a place if the world ever wants to give me a gift let me live there forever). This was literal and the trauma memory and belief that Pete's voodoo magic could touch me was gone. The piece of shit was finally dead to me. Of course i never expected to see him again - unless it was like on t.v. like John Lennon and his dad the astranged meeting- on my fame- forecastmazy.blogspot.com - i think at 23 that's why i'm going to see Pete, an awkward meeting and i even see my Grandmother Christine Mastronardi who only did weird shit in mt childhood like tell me my mother was shit for being Puerto Rican and when we left the home on the big fight in 1996 right before 6th grade that led to divorce, as my mother ran to her car and my father kicks both spicd out screaming and looking very mentally ill, to STAY with grandma, with grandma racist. But this was the run for freedom from Judd street and that house in Windowsill youtube.com/forecastmazyfilms and i ran with mommy from the daily hell of living in fear of my father on Judd Street, from my mother's tears and wounds to her car and towards my future happy home sleeping in the living room of the on bedroom apartment of 6 Knapps Park Ln in Fairfield, C.t. which i requested to take as my room so i could watch t.v. it was a big year for Absolutely Fabulous and where i'd start masturbating in the shower. .i'm glad to share all of this with you theoccupyfashion.blogspot.com audience before my adderall script is stolen from me by the Brc and the nurse thatcher that works here and lead me on my current doctor find search for my decade old medication (before i found adderall i didn't know the word focus was real, i didn't know sociality existed, i thought everyone had the situation that reading words never added to knowledge in memory, i never could complete my own art projects, never got an A in school, never passed a test with memory, thought everyone hated high school, thought everyone had the option of being a criminal or seeing if this school thing worked out-) But I had anna in forecastmazy.diaryland.com who before schizophrenia i plannes on marrying, before this little nemo on Hbo world, she was my soulmate and girlfriend for 4 years. She was my consort in hook-ups she was my adviser in girls I liked at The School of Visual Arts. She was my anna and the only person in life i have ever liked. I never let people get close to me when this mattered because i trust noone. I can only operate in a Belmont and Merteuil relationship. A world like Cruel Intentions was possible before Little Nemo on Hbo. I had chosen Hell's Kitchen for her but nothing became as it was meant to be at 23.

Me to me Nemo to Nemo

Me I used to have Anna but our schizophrenia stole her under the header of a t.v. show and i'm going to demand it drops us off somewhere in television, if only an intern. I'm pretty sure i will always remember our future, decided by God taking Teddy for a bad batch at The West Park Church. Our friends from our prequel schizophrenic world are gone we're little nemo now. Of little nemo on hbo. We'll probably have to panhandle for a camera. Cops arrested now for asking for a cardswipe. The route back to people past this heavy petting of a blog era is beyond the dead people at the transitional shelter who i must ignore every step of the way With our symptoms in addition to AdHd to schiziphrenia has people's hands feeling like cum in their movements. So far for being truthful the doctor gave me a sleeo medication. I cannot sleep all day on seriquil Schizophrenia is not scary it just has yet to find the right person to sell it. Mine is made of imaginary friends that feel like Williamsburg , Brooklyn graffiti art. Ghosts I summon, uncle John grandfather Mastronardi all exist now in Matt Siren artwork. Their friendly and hip in the afterlife. They're the only ones who can lead me to a doctor to fix this. Out of embaressment I just never tried before. Nobody would admit to anyone you have these symptoms. Hidr it. Go homelessm say you work for Hbo.even if i wasn't on Hbo i still promote it's not t.v. it's hbo (by saying that) i used to think i was promoting local williamsburg , brooklyn shops by making artwork on their pamphlets in Modca in Williamsburg , Brooklyn circa 2011 as Harvey Weinstein gave them money. This is an era Harvey Weinstein wants me to go to L.a. and after being so loyal and having daily conversations with him and people who are supposed to be talking to me from Hbo on 6th avenue as i represenr Domino Sugar and Williamsburg , Brooklyn to suddenly di nothing he says despite his will to promote Williamsburg , Brooklyn was a huge breaking of ranks. I mean these were friendly check ups as i try to make the world record for Brooklyn of handmade art as the filmmakers eye is electronically recorded, people come by on their way to film and say hi to me and make brand new films and sketches and t.v. shows that air on a t.v. station Hbo Little Nemo awhile i'm in the corner of the screen on pip. This was a daily thing and i cast/School of Visual Arts students film with Hbo stars provides by Harvey Weinstein and thus groundbreaking television follows up the 2008 graduation of the democrat of The School of Visual Arts forecastmazy.blogspot.com so now in 2009 the Series 7 like Hbo Reality T.v. continues so sexy it is Paris Hilton. Even with Paris Hilton chatting with me. And of course all the footage i'll never get to see in ENTIRETY but the best of Hbo Little Nemo is kept for me. me-it's a huge fucking domino sugar box it's a thing to live in not a thing to stay empty since i got to the school of visual arts its a huge sugar stack with the lights only turning on once when i thought they were going to let me in, and it's 2008 then and i'm across the east river and it's after forecastmazy.blogspot.com but it's little nemo on Hbo and there's nobody across the river to come and get me i'm 24 then and the closest i get to how i now have to live if i want to survive is 6 days of art for Harvey Weinstein it's a huge sugar stack that sits quiet looming over kent avenue it's shadow tells of the intricates of final cut pro and our missing master of fine arts from the School of Visual Arts it's a huge domino sugar box that awaits a superhero of film that becomes lena dunham for brooklyn but its a huge sugar stack at the shore of Brooklyn it's the symbol of Williamsburg, Brooklyn it's the symbol of little nemo on hbo it's a symbol of facebook.com/chrismastronardi.5 it's a symbol internationally of everything hipster it's a reason to live to brooklyn to move to brooklyn to tell your dad that you thought put magic against you and your mom and used to choke her in childhood that you live by that it's a huge sugar box you just don't get it for something that's supposed to be t.v. but is schizophrenia's start symptoms but that turns out to be a mind cold really when your not living loyal to Harvey Weinstein its a huge sugar stack and it sits there in williamsburg , brooklyn as we sleep on a bech at 47 metropolitian avenue in Williamsburg , Brooklyn we literally live down the street from a sugar stack internationally known as we try to distribute my Hbo money into moving all townies who like pot from Fairfield, C.t. to Manhattan and Williamsburg , Brooklyn with the largest fortune ever for being documented ny science being used by christopher mastronardi representes by Harvey Weinstein and im just soaking in the graffiti art and hipsterism outside of my own body in denial that this could be schizophrenia i would never be that or apart of those people even told the producers at one point if i am it better be logged by a blog and only a blog like some 90s Mtv idea on Hbo it's a huge sugar stack that we don't live in after silvertiles.blogspot.com nobody comes to get us outside the radient child symbol on the door of 47 metropolitian avenue williamsburg , brooklyn that was on the domino sugar building the doors never open at 24 to live in Domino and take the throne of Brooklyn via Williamsburg instead we become the Fairfield. Connecticut The Fischer King a while the republican party holds us hostage a party luck makes it we can never read about only follow our heart back to bill clinton im a hillary dreamer PLEASE TELL ME this dream is true it's a huge sugar stack the symbol of Brooklyn this is the entrance gateway to another world this is a huge sugarstack this is the symbol of little nemo on hbo me and i cant help but feel it's absence propelled us back into people a presence exists that holds us, if we're schizophrenic is there a God? Universalism includes atheism

me-battery@2%

Dear me, It's been a while since our schizophrenia poked a whole in ourfemminism and mind, forced us to see our biological father who used to beat our mother who we vowed to never see breaking our soul as we thought we were afront Hbo in our Hell's Kitchen apartment, the one from the kill the poor music video on myspace.com/williamsburgskittles our Adderall prescription is down to zero doctors and i cannot pull another caitlinrodriguezhusband.blogspot.com the amnesia since 2011has eaten my mind and the symptoms since 2007 wern't from Hbo. Pete was surely schizophrenic, he was always mean to mommy, he always choked mommy, mommy always cried in my bed in the room across the hall from hell (where two people who hate each other sleep together) then 1996 happened and they divorced. I can only pray the browser on this android saves this when the battery goes. God took away our equipment we got as a femminist father man hating self. Maybe for being weak against a voice on t.v. that says go see your father in forecastmazy.blogspot.com maybe under Hillary running we can recoup our filmmaker works. Like Dc Vertigo's The Sanman our tools are gone. I beg to place my soul on my blog so the world know where i've gone. The Kevin Smith sunshine and plan for Fairfield films has gone as our favorite director, our dreams with Sean of blunts and bongs, cocaine when i'm fancy and girls to tell Anna about on our way to marriage is gone. Our mockery of everyone moving to Brooklyn and ditching Manhattan , the reason we went to The School of Visual Arts is gone for youtube.com/forecastmazyfilms apartment 2D on Bushwick ave and our battlecry in our daily fight to return to thr film industry despite the pain, Lena Dunham replacing Kevin, the dark choice of love Hbo Girls battlecry against poverty and the world to return to our hipster scene. Where once was viewaskew now is missing getting shot by an ak47 in the Bronx with the season 3 poster of Hbo Girls watching over me. Anna's gone, a birthday on Back to The Future day, txt message and somebody i don't allow myself to see until i reach fame to make up and deliver on the boy she knew 7 years ago. My battery is dieing and i don't want to lose our only chance to conversate to the world. Hbo battlecry for we have lost teeth to document from voices disassemblying to the battlecry on the streets i promised in black mirror (youtube.com/forecastmazyfilms) the ending symptom of believing in Harvey Weinstein still leads me with faith that atleast he's still a good pitch away. I just need a pill to fix the panic-attack endusing block on the screenwriter feeling in my head which Adderall doesn't fix but must not go away as the fuel of my body Lovingly, Christopher Mastronardi I atleast accomplished Little Nemo as a graffiti art name and i logged everything in Seasons catalouged in Little Nemo on Hbo

Me-poster (Hbo Girls);note to me.

I really thought it was anna. We're at the end of psychosis with the word republican but i really did. I still carry the poster as my flag for wherever the fuck i go

Me - little nemo on hbo2 47 metroploitian avenue Williamsburg , Brooklyn 11211

I almost didn't get that last one up and you'd never know who i am atleast that portion of it Me-the android just turned off at it's own accord. I tear off my frameless glasses- for some reason I remember an Adderall ceremony in 2011 on Holland Hill Rd. ib Fairfield , C.t. i think i made it to a save point. You could find my blog again and know what happened to School of Visual Arts Student id:0620156 I'm still kicked out for breaking a 40 in forecastmazy.blogspot.com and i was an orientation leader. I'm still in myspace.com/williamsburgskittles in that apartment where my life is slaugthered by producers or rather schizophrenia. The place my dream died or fucking stalled. I'll still be there until i film again. There's no lights now just seizures the headaches must be me by now or gone i don't know comfort anymore or ever expect such a thing going into Season:6 of Little Nemo on Hbo i'm in a shelter hell and trying to figure out if their going to ever give me housing or if i should ditch this shit. The charger ports or plugs are gone from Starbucks for living outside and making my way to my mother's and eventually section8. I'll do it if Brc can't swing it i don't care about the next apartment because i don't care i don't like the homeless i will steal makeup until i work at store i'd rather die than be ugly i fight some degredational process, Season forecastmazy.blogspot.com a producer tricks me out of Kiehls and this eventually this idea of REAL art and grundge maybe fear of stealing a tooth brusg leads to weak teeth that weaken from the biting down condition. That wasn't always there and seems the best thing psychiatrists i've had so far that have said shit to me is it's neurological. The medicaide card looms low but i don't acknowledge that i think of this all LITERALLY as S.V.A. fulfillments as i play The Rolling Stones - Like a Rolling Stone. I bounce from place to place ignoring what the voices story is running back to freelance film never stopping never acknowleding the shelter never stop never worry just keep putting make up on and face cream and stolen lotions anything high end you can get just keep going it doesn't matter if you go to jail you live at the Brc and then i hide please send make up or money to me support Occupt Fashion not going to jail. And story by story, Harvey Weinstein on Hbo, whatever, no mayor or world fortune from surviving forecastmazy.blogspot.com - fine, no cameras and money gone-Section8 will pay electric and rent (fine), your schizophrenic, fine whatever i can fix that.just...never...stop .. It's Not T.v. It's Hbo

Me - Little nemo on Hbo

I'm pretty sure i talk to ghosts and that's religious but that's my place Season:5 of little nemo on hbo it's my analytical opinion that we have schizophrenia. Anna is long gone, the kittens and Marilyn Perez from forecastmazy.blogspot.com the world has gotten colder since they knocked down the Domino sugar stack the end of childhood. The bench is gone and so is Teddy and the logic of hiding alot went with that era. My memory is at zero today me-but if it's truly tragic i can't forget it. I'm still screaming Fevers and Mirrors at 47 Metrololitian avenue in Williamsburg , Brooklyn realistically i will always live there. I started the journey i never wanted to get up for on those sunny agerholm afternoons i'm at the 2015 portion of it it's like a mortal kombat latter -the park -the church of father kick out -the adderall church of theodore mapes -apartmenr bronx adderall apartment -apartment flcl every step of the way i learn more of the truth every step of the way i place art in our place and attempt to log our career under it's not tv it's hbo little nemo and primarily LITTLE NEMO ON HBO once i lost a tooth i no longer believed in this game i played with whatever i was talking to, even if i was schizophrenic i was making artwork with a crystal. The later level of mortal kombat -shitty Brc shelter. I live in a coma now not because of the voices but because of my teeth, i'm banished from people by it and wouldn't be a hipster if i didn't accept my ugly. I live in acknowledgement of my conditions and one by one have picked them out and placed them on the psychiatrist test, we'll see if he fixes us. So far i've learned nobody cares if i sleep all day or make it back to work. This'll be the only time i'm honest with a doctor about this - i don't want to go through this twice. In being fucked by the Brc on adderall i have placed our story and sorted our art on this blog. It's painful to watch because it's so honest and i'm trying at my rawest to make something despite the amnesia and voices and i get Occupy Fashion @ youtube.com/caitlinrodiguez1214 and i watch it and just see it now for the schizophrenic pain not what i saw it as on that season of Little Nemo on Hbo but there is nobody you could tell these symptons to it's not like Hannah Horvath world i camw from in livejournal.com/~forecastmazy as the student loan kid and adopted easton , connecticut kid/fairfield, Connecticut artist. This is a world of intellect stolen, Bachelor in Fine Arts, a cross art school muse and schiz3 that struck over night that only the right combo can fiz. One person I read on the net has AdHd and schizophrenia and gets Adderall and the pill that makes them go away. I need that. This is a world of Adderall required tragedy and a missing b amd h photo star missing student loan money and debt collectors who come just as the Brc takes away this hero's ability to read/fill out forms. A world where it hurts to stay still to watch a show and the author of this entry must live by a code to stay still physically grasping the chair to make it over any negative emotions on the media, a world where the negative symptoms of schizophrenia can only be beated by the original medication. A world where doctors don't seem to react if you tell them you can't get out of bed to shower without adderall or understand I SAID THE SCHIZOPHRENIA gets WORSE by x3 without Adderall. Not one doctor has gotten this right. For fucks sake i'm living with people who watch WWE it's a world where ghosts and prayers to masons at the grand lodge on 23Rd street oringinal god and Wiccan goddess are more likely to solve your problems before a doctor. It's a world where a little ghost named anna is my lover who directs my vivid dreams and sex is Health First dental decision 4 year block away. A world where it's worth it to go to jail for Sephoras but not when you get there. Me-it's 2015 and i've saved this blog in a way where i feel we made it to atleast, like, you could get our story and that were not crazy just brian johnston from fairfield , connecticut. I sat at the bench in Williamsburg , Brooklyn where i lived as my mind collapsed afront Live with Animals (literally living with Animals) and i remember pretending to sleep until one group of hipsters wenr by and i felt out of my body and like i didn't really know where i was or what i was doing i'

Occupy Fashion apart of Occupy Wallstreet since 2011

At one point i thought we were apart of The Creators Project the same monitors from M83 - midnight city the Indigo children watch were at The West Park Church. Hbo could be running it from afar, Pasteur Bob could have people in the basement playing a vampire Adderall game for vampires and a trick church like in Xanadu, like with the people who were in the West Park Church this is all sort of possible- I go with it because it's really good stuff so if I'm in Drop Dead Fred I'll run with Fred's stories and steal Hbo Girls season:2. And I love it. And I play it in the background to get some data in my brain, and I have this symptom but at the church I think it's i'm electronic- and i'll go with the story because Olivia is having fun. And their good stories. Untik Fred leads me to the Brc where they steal my Adderall, then i tell the doctor of Fred and Little Nemo on Hbo moves on. The church is Season:2 and 3 Teddy dies and it ends It's 5 and it all made sense on the show. Shire Pharmaceudicals had killed Theodore Mapes so I could practice chaos magick. But in the real world he was my friend and I cried up in the church balcony by the shakespeare stage where my sonic blanket and stay was when the Occupiers were there. We surpassed them to live there. Teddy was a DOWN dude and my best friend. I stole him food and medicaide it when Occupy West Park Church gets me that. Before that I spent a good portion of my days during It's 5 stealing soda searching for the right deli to steal soda from for the Hbo entertainment of Harvey Weinstein on Little Nemo on Hbo. I existed forced to makw art, soundwaves would attack me at times in Manhattan John Blaney even demanded to possess me or something, but I'd walk over the Williamsburg bridge my living anthemn and everything would get quiet and excilierate to a world of graffiti art and hipster homelessness backed and fueled by cinematography by Matt Siren and other graffiti artists, a place to make art, steal soda and just sleep on a bench to just be near my people even if i was their outcasted child. Deep down i didn't really know what was going on - if i was crazy or on New York t.v. - in School of Visual Arts escape from New York with Michael Bloomberg and Harvey Weinstein. I never wanted to check and blow my faith tally with them. I thought he made the silver tiles famous in return (Harvey's power) and Bloomberg made them rich. I get lost without my medication and just keep making newspapers and i'm told my friends are made rich. But the entire time I join the republican party on Little Nemo on Hbo they treat me like shit. Like they have Bill Clinton hostage. And there's always like a logical end to being Republican. And it just feels like I waited one year too long for this story to be cute. But I had faith and thought the Republican party punished me for Voting Obaama in 08 and made me vote 12 for Romney and red down the line or they'd take adderall away.

The Anniversary - Designning a Nervous Breakdown

That's the album that's the theme of my schizophrenia it's happy and ghosts always instruct me to sing for one girl my heart out whoever it may be in this era i'm surviving headaches learning this album to 40s in Brooklyn at forecastmazy.blogspot.com after i move to brooklyn presuming i'm on t.v. i destroy my hell's kitchen apartment for my thesis set myspace.com/williamsburgskittles and join the Brooklyn army from Bushwick on bushwick ave from apt 3d to 2d and i demand it east williamsburg , brooklyn like the mta says. I think i'm on t.v. i never speak to the producers always drink stay liquid and point like the babe at the mao daiky on my way home from The Schoom of Visual Arts. You'll find that apartment on myspace.com/forecastmazyfilms it's a world where i declare a girl the hipster queen of Williamsburg , Brooklyn and it's a big deal and voices encourage me to sing with my heart and if anything goes wrong i'm caitlin (my personal mental capable muse) it's been years since forecastmazy.blogspot.com and silvertiles.blogspot.com but the music continues. I was young in 2007 at 23 and still thought there was such a thing on Little Nemo on Hbo as producers coming to get me, emo romance between and Hbo hostage and a williamsburg , brooklyn girl, hipsters protesting my freedom and Harvey Weinstein's office exiy from the show - there's even an end to little nemo on Hbo. In 2008 the mayor is Michael Bloomberg and art school students are rewarded for putting their heart into their art (with refunded cash by Hbo). S.v.a. is watching, the world and my creators the silver tiles. A scares hostage i sing to them outside where we lived on Hbo in silvertiles.blogspot.com But it's not really a far out reality and it's really innocent and something i could have bounces back from if i didn't spend what wasn't in paying for Johnny The Homicidal Maniac was in cocaine and looking Pratt cool at S.v.a. i'm young and i'm sure i'm on t.v. i'm too young to think or accept schizophrenia could be a brief symptom if you want it to- but in a way i never could at forecastmazy.blogspot.com I have headaches that are either gone or become apart of me, i'm still expecting an end over a pill and still innocent believing a producer would 'let me go' i haven't faces telling a man in my mind;Harvey Weinstein; who i told could have the world money from Little Nemo on Hbo to fuck off and that i take back the money and give it to caitlin rodriguez. I haven't had ghosts explain i'm not talking to harvey weinstein and may need to look up schizophrenia, i hadn't seen things worse than outcasting words for an emo feeling your on t.v. that feels like the anniversary - designning a nervous break (as mine does - ot's not t.v. it's Hbo to you) i didn't yet conclude what i'd do if i was wrong in forecastmazy.blogspot.com - which is of you're out of cash like that- you BETTER have schizophrenia and you better get jonathan coulette involved from Tarnation and have a Tarnation size file size and story online. And it better be Christopher Mastronardi in Tarnation

me-bad typing

Me-it's the day where all the typing is fucked and i'm stuck typing to Teen Titans!Go i am only fillec with hate and don't feel alive, a series of voices talk un sequences that lead to don't ignore me and have the intellect of a monkey. You're theoccupyfashion.blogspot.com era of Little Nemo on Hbo. I'm still stuck in transitional housing praying to Frank Sinatra. The people surrounding me as i try to use my literacy have the intellect of bad puss, really bad p uss you'd never touch. I am waiting for free apartment section 8 housing, i think of this like the government paying for an artist to live like The Vines. The phone keeps typoing no matter how exact i type and an old woman anext me keeps making a coo noise. The black woman just says B.E.T. and the ghosts distract me again for chaos magick luck, to connect a movement that connects to circles i spun on the street to connect to the living island of Manhattan which is my spiritual power as Little Nemo. I have done this since 2013 it matches my religion of adderall i have come out of psychosis and no longer think i'm on t.v. but trying to figure a way to get on t.v. i have amnesia and can't remember where my wallet is let alone lines. This is not a appropriate place for a School of Visual Arts student. But enough of that a seizure is coming on- i feel the tip of cum on my dick, a schizophrenic ghost talks maybe these things are all from institutions the seizure will make me sweat lose intellect and type about Meanie Heart. I came up with positive goos heart as the alternate version. A hand vibrates on my eye i feel it inside myself. Soon i will be in Meanie Heart, in the seizure mode, a voice says something but if i ignore it itt'll go away. I used to think this was creative chaos magick, even made a Broome street ceremony of it with a stolen laptop at Ian Applebee's father's property. The laptop was stolen and i thought i had to make art for harvey weinstein and at this point in 2009 during It's 5 Season:2 I thought i was talking to Ashley Olsen. She had a brief love affair with me and John Blaney. I made handmade art like i did as a kid and they filmed at my request as an economical science clock logged me under the psychosis symptoms i'd later understand as schizophrenia (when i had Adderall to add up and figure it out) me-it's empty now Ian has left New York for years and i have yet to acknowledge how little i understood the laptop as a crime. But it's grand larceny (over 1,000 dollars) and wasn't one week in jail like an iPhone was, but I made art bags in this time and dropped them all of in Williamsburg , brooklyn i havent seen a cop for even hopping a terminal in a year after the labtop I WOKE THE FUCK UP to what i was talking to decided to go back on Adderall one of them said no-and we were done. For how badly my brain is in trauma for days without Adderall I am in trauma. For the ending of forecastmazy.blogspot.com i am in trauma (where there were no keys to Domino Sugar in Williamsburg , Brooklyn via Michael Bloomberg and Hbo that year) I sat one night at the end of forecastmazy.blogspot.com and talked in my mind electronically to Paris Hilton, I waited in the night afront the lightning symbol that woild become my Little Nemo on Hbo symbol and still is from base door (47 Metropolitian Avenue Williamsburg , Brooklyn), nobody came. And I had no idea where Paris Hilton went but she implied she was a producer of forecastmazy.blogspot.com and Hbo reality tv. It was implicated she'd be important it was warm and the end of my time with people, it was before i went out into people on the cusp. Right before it happened. Right before i ran out of Adderall and got lost with the voices telling me Michael Bloomberg wanted a little kid artwork show of me filmed on N.y. security cameras. Of course a crew from H o would be hidden. But I never checked and I mean I'm a middle class poor kid from a Fairfieldv, Connecticut I never dated a girl named Tawney and was adopted by a man who immediately died after saving me from being stuck in hicksville Derby, C.t. I learned there is no love in life a man makes his own by my heroea death Arun Gupta in 2004 who i'd had as a father figure awhile applying for The School of Visual Arts and ran a cell phone kiosk at B.j.'s so Michael Bloomberg was a magically rich mayor to me. He could have paid for forecastmazy.blogspot.com A Series 7(imdb the Daniel Minahan movie) t.v. show. This is possible for a guy who's like the 3rd richest man in the world. I thought somebody would come and get me. Maybe The Arcade Fire. I had in the summer screwed them over in making on a band on Hbo (just didn't want to by August it's thesis film year) on-forecastmazy.blogspot.com Maybe Harvey Weinstein would appear... Me-it's cold now our Domino Sugar castle of dreams from silvertiles.blogspot.com (Season:1 of Little Nemo on Hbo 2007-2008 thesis) there's no update on our graffiti art area and 47 no longer exists. Williamsburg echos and creeks at me-to get in and out if i go to the ancient landmark to call home- 2008 singing to caitlin in our Brooklyn apartment The Anniversar - Designing a Nervous Breakdown drips the feeling of cocaine snd the coke he gave me at the West Park Church the days surviving the headaches - the belief I'd get a club in Williamsburg , Brooklyn @Pfizer and the Williamsburg Arts District on facebook.com/chrismastronardi.5 blinks the Lena Dunham Hannah picture at us, like in Amelie, blankly, at the same moment, as memories of Tribeca diners with Anna from livejournal.com/~forecastmazy live in my missing wallet with my School of Visual Arts id- it's not like hearing voices- it's some desperate oddity to find the way back into the film industry and get Lena Dunham's attention; our missing novels and film awards exist with nightmares of Law and Order way on Chelsea Piers wateringly washing the crashing waves of Sean Durmond's missing boat, memories of Lorenna and nugget haunt me to return as i hide from people wounded from when the bite went too far-it's more like a game with death while everytime i steal is Russian roulette i can get a job now or face that i've seen jail and call 311. But it refuses to be forgotten that ending of forecastmazy.blogspot.com because my battery is dieing again and i'm barely speaking. This is Season:5 Back To The Future 2015