me-shaky in it

I'm shaky now in the Meanie Heart. I have no memory but for fucks sake I have to write on a newspaper i can't work until a doctor fixes me but student loan people call me, like i care if my loan is in default when my brai doesn't even have strong enough medication to Twitter. I'll just ignore these symptoms and live out my life as though i'm just a shy quiet retarded kid or i'm really shy on the Emo scale. I'm reliving out high school through Awkward and I can tell you that's a fucking condition of my sickness from the word republican. I used to have relationships with the voices like relationships on my blog. The olsen twins would talk to me electronically and I talked to them through talking out loud. This is something I do all day in Season:2 but it's just I never felt such pain in headaches, I never hurt like I did in 2008 it surely had to be Hbo reality t.v. there was surely a reason to spend the money I had in my bank account on cocaine. I was surely representing the School of Visual Arts on Hbo. I was to make Jared Leto proud. That's why I invested my credit rating and student loans on this show, but when you're wrong what-do-you-do and I could have figured this all out a long time ago but I went off my meds and that's when it stops being me that's when i'm down to caitlinrodriguezhusband And I found Adderall in like 2009 but really it was 2 years off my meds I was lost hoping the last thing the voices or "producers" said on my medication was true. And it leaves one with a need to make their own calender. The Harvey Weinstein one told me to go off Adderall once. This was all in the course of being "Republican" or in psychosis but the evidence is in the blogs and people saw me in Williamsburg , Brooklyn doing the fucking papers I keep talking about this but it starts out in 09 as an art piece to a silver tile Sarah O'donnahuge and I end uo doing it daily when I run out. It was the "way off the show". In 2011 in the midway point of Season:2 it was no longer about getting off the show i start then to question everything; I thought since 2007 the School of Visual Arts documented me. I never questioned this even had a 10000 days of drawing on an alternate Nyu Tisch calender. Me-maybe I should start up the School of Visual Arts church of silver tiles calender again. Me-at this point the amnesia has me. It's not worth trying to write-I feel like I can't remember anything and should just stop for now-.