Seizure city

Meanie Heart. But now i'm a seed. Giggling and i don't maybe like totally thing that talks to me on Little Nemo on Hbo i like mean John Blaney and i don't mean maybe now traveling with me because he died of drugs a decade ago. Yay for our fairfield, C.t. team because the voice mentions him all the time and tries to pretend to have conversatioms with me. It fucking makes me bite my hand but whatever i'm a seed for future enough of these seizures and you come up with an idea like where you work in thr future sometimes it pretend to be Christie Cummings and likes to say ha! And likes to use sexuality and currently wants to distact me but i keep writing it wants me to bite down it wants me to be crazy wants to ha me i look at it like i'm not yet born i hate the song quietly changes it keeps talking but i know i will be born i made a decisiom and no matter what it says mastronardi wil be my way to ride this seizurre to my birth with teeth no matter who sees it little Nemo on Hbo is my WORLD i will own it and fucking live this prequel seed bullshit that i'm living it':'s a thing that wants to be ahead of me but i'll be beyond scared to write about nothing i'm getting fun whiplash from riding the seizure i hate my past conversations with the seizure i thinj i will ignore it and all it's stories about the dead and worthless worss. I don't want to talk to the Meanie Heart thing or something that pretends to be Christie Cumings or wants to make me giggle maybe it can cracj addict Blaney it's way to the next petson to be haunted i never knew that kid well but he's one of our Fairfield people Tim Willis calls me to tell me about how he failed like Josh Galpin. I bind these people in magick ti be useful for me. Since i don't even think the magick is real somedays and if i do it's because i summoned it from Enchantment in the East Village. Anna never saw me seizure. I can't get a woman until this is fixed and my mind is stuck on hook ups from a decade ago and random dates in sickness where i had narcolepsy and that's only one in 2008i don't consider myself alive i would live like Jessa if i could but i seizure all the time and don't consider myself alive under that header. There's no way for me to consider myself alive only as a creature and i'm so desperately trying to explain this incase Hbo Girls cast or Ifp or good friend Reuben Meltzer reads this one day. I had one inpatient adventure from telling the woman who works here to fuck off, and honestly i get sent off for that? Bitch is a night guard. I'm not like these fuckers here i don't like not having a job. Even this is sub level to my regular dieecting intellect-yo fuck telling the doctor about any biting myself bei g honest did not get me useful medication. This baby shit is crap so far i don't even think my body can stand on seriquil without the adderall, my particular schizophrenia requires amphetamines because of my sleeping condition and i know thats happened before i've read this on the net