Apart of Occupy Wallstreet Little Nemo on Hbo

I always thought schizophrenia was a disease for other people that makes you inaccessible but it's more like there is grime in my mind. It's shit i would have hidden longer but time has gotten by i've hidden from Pascal on the street for long enough, in my internal clock some days Season:2 this was literal. Pascal has a copy of my film school work he was in. Me-it's fragile my focus the people at the place i lived captured my medication and cut it in hald. I'm moving out of this place. Me-schizophrenia is more like one day the man function in my intellect went away and i've tried to cope ever since. It's more like an additional problem to my A.d.d. I need a psych to fix so i'll get a new one. I'm gonna try this doc tomorrow see how this clinic goes. It caters more to the bisexual transgendered community so maybe this one will get me. Me-can't focus, welbutrin is not a real medication. My body doesn't like that one. The people in the place i live distract me again. My phone i have to charge by hand. If you're wondering Pascal i had these sorts of issuses since thesis year. Since i hide from people. Me-it's like i can"'t move with one adderall a day i need real doctors. Me-I had to write everything onto our blog so we matter again. Me-we need another script to write. I don't like the idea of being treated like a child. Schizophrenia is more like a illness inside that makes me sad and shy near people an anxiety wave hits me and leada me to the conclusion i need an additional medication to adderall after going of mine. Me-my world now is cold, with burning fire of nobodies talking near me. My focus gets shattered without more medication and i need to find someone to help me until i switch doctors. The adderall only helps the conditions and my schizophrenia there-arw voices only sometime. So-i could ignore them or find a doctor. I think welbutrin makes me sick. My main problem over the voices, which I still think is a concept is the sleep disorder I face. Nothing is worse than the fearful feeling of not knowing if you can get up, like can I make appointments like a man. That's when it takes away from my real life. I can deal with a fog feeling for the rest of my life but only if i could wake up. Me-the phone get's off and i cringe. I already decided i'm out of this place whether or not they get me housing. I could go with another place to do this. Me-some days i miss thinking Harvey Weinstein is watching over me. Me-the sickness gets worse from the air conditioning in the shelter. My focus dies again and again. It feels like there's hands on my crotch. These are literal symptoms i wouldn't admit for years. Like I was gay or something. But real schizophrenia you get medication and go back to work. But my schizophrenia has taken from my job resume. So it's probably intern for a while I wonder how i'm 31. My mind lives on this pause at 22 or 23 a symptom of the schizophrenia. I don't feel 31 i feel like I misplaced my face. I have friends in Fairfield (C.t.) having kids. Reuben had a kid and he was a costar Season:1 in Brooklyn/at the School of Visual Arts. (It's easier to log my life in Seasons). Me-I feel sick my neck tenses, these awful people at the shelter stomp their feet (they never shower and all shit themselves i hate these people(. I have a broken android charger i can only charge by holding it. Me-every one of their laughs distract me. Another fucking episode of Law and Order. I could be in jail for stealing makeup soon i don't want to watch more cops. But I can only live with Sephoras. I study fashion and try to make clothes when i can. I had to fight for the shit i stole to make the fashion club. I had no choice i had to have some Occupy Fashion shit on the net or i didn't exist. I had no way of remembering lines, alot of arts at the West Park Church had straight acting neo-hippie meditation events it's a great place. If I get fame i will honor Theodore Mapes and live in our room forever. I WILL DO THIS ANYWAY. Bob thanks for saving my life. In my time at the church i was able to find my medication amd figure out my life. My time at Occupy was an interesting affair mixed with alot of silver tiles, where i'm talking to the voices, producers, whatever they are I didn't know but following their advice and praying to the Manhattan masons gave me no prison fail of straight up a bling ring spree of makeup. I just don't want to do it anymore. But welfare is only 100 and i don't have a way to suffice until I get money. Me-i'm not sure how this entry came out. I feel like it's like 11Th grade photo i mixed it together after smoking a bowl and stole it from other people.