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Me-that's what I call the partial seizure I have or whatever you would call your body hyping up to bitd itself. I pray to the masters of Metaphysics the Manhattan masons from 23Rd street for help. I swear there's a connection to Ghosts in all of this. Voices can't all be chemical/the belief that one is on Hbo. Each day since I got sick feels like a strain. On Season:2 I start to spend time at the Apple store after I let some kids take my iPhone1 this is back then. And it's the end of Season:2 2008 and I'm about to start Mfa at The School of Visual Arts. This would have happened if I didn't lose my medication. But I did and I forget to go back to the couchsurfing place and get lost in silver tiles. It's this idea apart of little nemo on Hbo that I meditate with a merkabah and then alter the Astral Plane/I am in my character at the time Kade from fearsexdream.diaryland.com Tastey Moursel's show I wrotw at 27 thank you nugget and an angel/demon that is green;this I embody on the astral plane the plane of spirits and it's in my creative world. Of course Hbo is supposed to be monitoring my thoughts. I had lost the Brooklyn apartment but had such plans for my Hvx and Dvx and Brooklyn. Ideas for life because Hbo was supposed to come and get me. The pain was supposed to stop because it was caused by a machine. But Hbo never came after graduation and Seasom:2 It's 5 named after the Architecture in Helsinki song (great band I highly suggest) lasted 5 years because I went off Adderall. But I planned on continuing my story from my the visual axis blog (on my blogger profile). So I thought my schizophrenia was a t.v. show with new technology that was a gift from the film department of The School of Visual Arts, my art school, alongside being placed in the Hbo family via them and the School of Visual Arts alumni dept. But this was not so. But who the fuck would you tell you hear voices to? They wern't always there and they sometimes claimed to be the Weinstein Company. In 2006 none of this went on. Just one whisper in the wind. But that could be a spiritual experience. I call this Season:-1 Top Floor A. This was when I go to practice my universal wiccan religion and through my Ketu talisman into the ocean to make a wish that I am propelled into Manhattan. 'Nothing will ever again be the same' I hear as a whisper. And that's it for voices that year, so arguably my experiences at the School of Visual Arts could be spiritual experiences. It's 2006 and my School of Visual Arts friends read my diary and my dream diary and logging of my spirit work(or rather my Rosicrucian pamphlets). It's not far out in a Manhattan art school that your friends could be documenting you with Apple computers. This year I think I'm on dorm room T.v. but nothing is different no voices AND THIS COULD HAPPEN i purchased a Sharper Image alarm clock with a camera in it to see when my friends read my diary, there's no out-of-the-world explaination of schizophrenic thought sequence that in return my friend and later muse/in art especially on Season:2 James Hughes couldn't have purchased a camera from spyshops in Manhattan (which specializes in small cameras you can place in areas to spy on people) in return. Me-this is covering Season:-1and my friends from Williamsburg , Brooklyn and the time of partying in Brooklyn and at the School of Visual Arts dorm.