Blog before every small thing you do so you know you lived

Really think about what you do everyday. Slow down for your phone. Watch showbox. Charge and die. The art of the dead. Its like stretching death. Haha, thats a glimpse from the future. Too far gone t o get them honestly. Dont know they dont move on. Bleed in writing the novel is attached to my dick. Maybe life is like the happy tree friends. Whisper to nobody ghosts you cant occupy my time. There was never such a thing i never depended on 90s chaos magic cyber reality hacking fans for my art and career. I am not nothing more than boingboing. Hgolgol bordello. The soundtrack of awkaward is my friend now. Good instincts. No one cares what your talking about its more like i ask people to read my diary and pretend to write it by hand. Cigarettes would be good. I m just talking to myself. That all my bad luck is not for me. Im just talking to me. That life accomplishments have to say hard now. How downner. Go back to sneaking into movies. My movies should be free ive decided. Just make it to the next level of life. You cant even eat your way out of this. I was fat when i was 10. Maybe ghosts demand people pay attention to them but now with twitter we care about dieing and not the dead. What is ouija and summoning anymore. These are only for chain smoking kids in art school. I have nothing to say now. I just bleed most of myself on the internet. Just let it all out to be let into a process. Then normality is built on an Apple color spectrum. The art doesnt need to exist. I can suffer in alonement with people watching. Its a harsh situation in my hands. Why not get pain meds. Nobody would ever be happening to choice the next level. Blindside the right placement. What the fuck just pour my heart out. What if i woke up 16 doing this. Now im that 31 year old guy. Notjing has changed. Everyone does the same generation thing. Its just one more addition. Thats all im saying. That i banished my friends a long time ago until bad health insurance fixed me which takes forever and creates a new 13 year old era.

Theres always a novel

Dont run out. Not worth it to quit smoking i can tell when i need cigarettes but weeks later is absurd. Why did i come up with this idda. I miss blunts with sean. Imagine me missing something. Its not me its the lare ontip of me and im too tired to do anything. Jesus christ is tired hardcore what are these people my genetics are shitty. Ive come to this conclusion after much thought.theres the root of my depression. No dont say that it turns people off. But this replaces my paper diary. Not wort h the extra mile these days a f ter the ghosts and shit. Not that i wanted this fate. Fucking ghosts like little kids. And they can feel its because of the ouija board or maybe i want to con c ince the audience i have something to say. Run outside like Sonic the Hedgehog. It would have made sense to sleep through today. Its a dark feeling you must run through that doesnt smell human thats ghosts.

Im bringing down f ollowers. What does that matter if thats all i have to say. I have to bleed it s omewhere or it balls up inside me. Why can everyone see the future. It bleedingly hurts if you ever get that then dont tell people. Pope came by. Line was too ridiculous. Not allowed to get down. The pope does not really speak directly to me. Im the sort of blog he could have. Now theres not ghosts just people i miss. in the ghost for them. Seans birthday was yesterday. I asked reubin to wish him one. Its a cold wind. The pope is on tour. Only 1. What a downer. Atleast i writeaboutt it. Mispell to homel a nd security save me. No time but i see ill need a new way. October? Month? Fuck why not bitch directly. Because im traumatized. Its not even worth typing out. Why did i quit smoking. You never really quit so why am i off season. I believe in the film reubins making in white. The church was just around the corner. Primerly primary one. Paperwork. What a nightmare to wait for free housing. I mean what else will i tell you like in denmark ny can can pay 4 h o using if you wait. But its a really long time. Really security. Blah words i feel like the death. Mark wahlberg believes in the pope. Every person has a thing to twitter about. I bet i write this to charge my phone. I thank you for reading my blog. I lost a follower. Not pretty enough yet. If youre a downer you lose people. What am i doing who reads blogs turns off. Typing in an android is harddcore slow. I go to a doctor for chakra pain. Why not. I used to get accupuncture at sva. Maybe i need that again.

24.7 broke you down. Now its not real. Atleast you made it back to that. Where is the adderall i live in ny if u want to sell to me i even left my number. Subway. Yeah. Delirium.

Are blogs out that pretend to be nin? So i made it back to the net through a fine art spree. Well nobody appreciates tributes to my father who died of cancer. He said he had a healthy happy life smoking. So smoke up johnny. So thats bigs name. Sex and the city complete onto The Carrie Diaries. Every 80s song is the excuse for this show. So Connecticut huh. Char l ette from fairfield then? Pain im in doctor mess. Why me? Now its a blog. I just need a psychiatrist simple as that. Why do i tell you this like its relev a bt to your instagramming. Kinda lost it when dad died. He was my friend too. So a huh yo i can see this denial. No just wait out the apt lottery. Ghosts arent mean why am i the ghost kid? My bed i landed in once in 1997. So that makes me posessed since the 90s? Sometimes im in physical pain. A condirion i g ot. Dont admir this. Youre stronger than your body. What if its aids. Then you got laid. If you die self expressed do uou reincarnate. Just watch the box. A gift from the u niverse. Andriod im into. Let it all out just bitch like a bitch because no one reads this. One dentist to read. Steve won! I dont understand why the other seasons arent online. Bb 1? Where is it all. Bb17 is no superfan but od like to be. Expeess and you can feel your pain where did natalie go its like an element now. So long ago before emojis blogs counted but how many hits? You never cared before. Why now? I feel the tired on the back of my eyes and i bleed it out to my blog. Someone stole my bolex. What the fuck is that? No. Im not here im wading in a velvet sea. Its a demon picked me for hell tv. Thats what it just surely is the reason. A complex demon yeah thats it

Now im not well as a human. I dont want to explain i just want to write. Remember happiness and all of that sorts. Govenor greets pope. What the hell is a deal. Im fucked to a good extent.

Then we change this when we move. Its a blog of misery. A new clever name will capture everything. Somebody will sell adderall. Somebody will find me in this blog and read and ill exist again if only for a moment because somebody read my blog I dont know 3 years mean nothing. What is that? The brc made me do it. Yeah was a patient. What are we doing. The smell doesnt matter now. Overnight it was over. The greedy greely died. Forgive me. Cant see two doctors. Telleth watch tv. Died years ago at this rate. Big brother 17 is ending thats deep for me. Go watch the movie you didnt write this. Does it notify you i write. Do you read blogs. Did you want to know about my dentistry progress? Or what bad teeth does to the ego as you await dentistry appovals? Did you know its like death. Like being a retarded cripple The shingles was a comic book version of my character Mike. A novel. A writer. Written. The darkness of the news again. Double doctoring. Beautiful friend you had to have this happen or you wouldnt be here its in sequence. Oh they meant that. So its one thing. Try the singular thing and see if shell do it. Two. Bubbles. Babble. Blab to my words i write to run from myself on digital page. Could have been caught much worse than you know. Brc doctor i disagree with. Thats right get it out how pointless this period of time is. How is it like to be cancelled out. Nap the pain away. You cant let gi r ls see you when you have bad teeth. Season 3 of Hbo girls poster looked like my ex girlfriend. I still believe in its not tv its hbo even if the y dont want to give little nemo a tv show. New d inosaurs. And the pope depends on you its like a pop u p q uiz find the daily show

mumbles this for himself please d onate to me

I d ont get the point he says. But hell keep bitching. Its a tradition to keep his blogs honest if only for himself. How does the pope get this much press? I still dont understand what this guy does. Doesnt the pope have to be catholic? Sex and the City movie now. I miss Nisha. Why did they event emojiis this seems to have been done to spite me. No med compliance empty and cold. Depression looks black on your eye and it feels like you died waiting for this gov apartment years ago. Hands on railing. Self express somebody is excited about the pope sighting. I dont understand how i am not news but this guy is. How can the pope be unpredictable? It hurts if youre looking back. When do you look back on your blogs. Muselim president why would this matter. Ass lost fuel feelings of joy risk the situation of drainning Gunnars last gift. This all seems weak. Rock and roll suicide. Newspapers and i know these people too well now. Know their voice know theyre there. Pipeline. Final. There is no point in the news only The daily show wgere is it now

No im not here. I don t hear the news. I miss happiness and friends. Let noone see your bad days. Nobody gives a shit. More pope shit. Hey pope fix my life. I dont k now what to do. This thing is linked to my instagram. Somebody reads this. Why would i read this why you thanks for giving a shit h e y you. Its like being Sonic. Only one way it could have gone. Need a new doctor. What is life. Fuck this fucking shit g oddamn bullshit and these people and the whole deal. I would donate? I need a controversery to get cash more fucking or bare honesty. Atleast that completes a blog. I miss the people i knew at Sva. Another year and more teeth hiding. Failed career didnt ecpect that. Didnt expect this life News kills me. No need. Hot girl. Mr gone. Crazy man. Too many of these people. T he president meets the pope. Why. I have more important questions than this. I dont understand what happened here. Went to another doctor. Ditching out. Going t o next place. Must reassemble life. Even in hood. So what hide from guns or whatever. Get capped? Just hide for life. Interview process. Interview process. What the fuck is this shit? Adhd help. Where is God now in my dark moments? Lost without good insurance? Can you see my dark spots? The ugly in my s oul? These are the worst times of my life could be worse. Oh man never leave here. Need out of here. Oh its another hit level. Maybe a home to transferr to. So their wont be a manhattan rent controlled apartment? Big deal if im fucked for a bit. Ill make it through. Out of network. Fuck my life. Fucky and depressing cant be depressed. Just keep moving. Italian mafia to attack Pope stupidest shit ive ever heard of. Who would want to attack the pope? Does this guy grant money or heal lepers. Must find new place. Trauma. What the fuck? When things go well it pauses to fuck. Thats the pattern i live in now What the fuck? I d ont knoe. Bitching feels so good on this forum. Who reads this you know? Td bank is the account to dobate to. Eventually ill up t o something interesting. More movie reviews. Fashion. Black people? Are we a political society now? Did we beat racism? Just elect Hillary. If you know me its worth reading. Guy. Rememberance. Sonic filmmaking. Too much to read need new fcp mommy. Need cash. Thanks for reading and caring. Last season of Awkward. Its like refreshing out of water. To figure out your not on tv but homeland security tv. Careful n ow to stay in. Its not just rambling its my life. Juicy skin. Symbolic bullshit thats all i am now. Almost annas birthday. Bttf 2 year almost over. Tv show. Tmz. Vote the black guy for president. I remember thinking i beat racism then. Brc. Bullshit days. Inevitable it was inevitable. I cant help that. Proof you went. Hey man im no longer man, man. Not all here. Quit smoking dont know why. Its like an echo a million miles away. Sex and the City the movie. 2 of them. Wheres my make u p. Face it your hungry l. No not for death dont ever say that. This blog makes me feel so alone. Nobody reads this. Not that i promote it. I write it for myself a piercd post Sva boy. Where is my beautiful art wife? Where is my Tine in big brother? Big brother gossip. Now im connected to someone. Like johnnie mac will ever hear my name. Too famous and i hide too low. Get a flow and get fucked. When can i get teeth fixed how long is now? For Dentaquest so i can get a job. Im just stuck in limbo as novody. Maybe lucky rabbit the pope being in New York can bring me good luck. What a bitching rant. And theres soioi much more. This replaces my physical diary. No point in holding it at this point. Maybe in a few years ill matter again. Pay for office visit. Call health first. I am not alive the only evidence of me is on blogger. I am an occupy reluc already. Four years. Another art school class graduated my ar y school. What worth do i have to the world now? Wait it gets better they say. Yeah that makes sense.like no more advan it does nothing. Women fake psych cursibg me. Imagine if all this didnt g o up. Its pivitol to my sanity this bitch rant goes up. Happiness in slavery. Nin generation i am. Ive reached a real low point. Collide pretend to be happy but whatd be the point in my only proof im alive? I ran too far. From life. Got dirty. The spirits willed this. Its the only way it could have gone. I need a doctor. Yeah too much load. Bitch all night if you want on nlogger with your only friend blogger. Theres no typing on an android. What if they finally shot the pope. Does that end the story of christ? So italian since The Sopranos. Dont want to feel time. No med compliance regular world. I dont see it. God save me then if youre real. Need shaky. All about the popr. No justice. What a dark cave i live in. I just dodge depression to come up an optomist. Policr got maced. Fort greene. Brooklyn address again in the future. Well aint that just planned. Leave y our laptop at h ome. Its a mini novel now. How often do people die in Brooklyn? Dont go outside then. Party in Bushwick. Arts festival H Hbo girls what do you know? Find another doctor. Find death. On bike. Hospital. Newd. Leave the scene of accident. Whats the point. Bus games. Fucked my life wanted too much. Should have hid whenever my life is okay. No i dont want to be that kid. How did i fall to thos. Fu c k drawing and life of what more worthless words.

I dont e v en wanna write for how tragic my latest events are. You know i write this for myself. Now im having problems in adderall. If you are prescribed please i will buy. This is ridi culous. I cant believe the latest events in my life i dont even wanna describe. Thats how fucked and disturbed i am. The pope is back on tv. What if hillary clinton doesnt win and the world ends. Anext Che now is jesus. I didnt know hes still popular. As a universalist. No im not here. Its bad when i dont wanna write about it since i make this thing for me. The antichrist is the pope because he doesnt wear the red shoes. The pope shit is crazy. What is the Christian fate? Just that theres an afterlife? Do these people have faith in a n ything? I dont understand hes going to touch you is the popes thing? Do they like abortions yet? Do people really care about that? What is this fucking world when people take away? What is this shit? Sit and wait on your hands is the whole world. Thats all people are. What is life? Why does bad shit happen to innocent people? Too many people believe in this pope shit. Its like a weird tv show. I need a job life is really real right now when we get into jobs. How do i find a job after so much occupy. Just did 4 year. What is this. How much is storage. Do i do this just to log my boring life? On pause until the day my teeth are fixed? Why cant big brother 17 johnnie mac do my teeth and save my life? Who reads this thing. Really break it down how do i have readers? What is my life? Where is this blog going to my need for paypal? I like android. What are the meek anymore. What is anything anymore. I dont really think its bad to pretend or believe to be on a tv s h ow. I need adderall if your selling. Instagram society and me without the selfies. So lonely at 31 its a dark era. But atleast i tell blogger about it. Atleast i have always blogged my life. I couldnt get through my days without Mtvs awkward.

Need things to add together.

Stephen colberts show started out funny. Now its just sell out. Bring back Genius before the daily show dies. Do it like colbert report please

Big brother this year ending. Makes me lonely. Must keep watching tv. No more sleep must consume. Season 6 satc. Mr. Big. Not here because of bad teeth 143 followers on instagram. Need more grafitti artwork. Fill my life. Ignore ghosts? Just say your on a tv show to fil l the empty. Its okay somebody put cash in my Td bank acc. I p ut the number on the side so you can deposit. I need a paypal again. Its like starting over retarded. I wouldnt talk to me. The ghosts were little kids. Another dimension. Its never good to be below 1k. No this is not happening im an echo of myself and its the best dental quest will provide.

No i dont want to live in The bronx again i almost got shot there

Carry a history noone cares about.

Bleak how are you? Lost in a haze o f memories. Oh that ended a long time ago. Now its lonely consolations. Dark words sounds like Tool. Yeah im s writer, a writer yeah thats the answer. Id like to meet you again. Yeah i have an appointment. Im with you. I was cured alright. Yes favourite movie. Love the book. Yes u i dont know. Its all rambling until someone gets hurt.

It's crippling. It's like a strangling. Nobody is there everybody is there, the implication is they can read your thoughts but you know this isn't true. These aren't my emotions you think, can I even type anymore at one point you wonder in the Apple store. It's like wandering into the Apple store. People look away when you have bad teeth, they don't really look at you and you accept this. You don't deserve to be looked at, bad teeth has different conditions and versions. Implants will fix this, please somebody make this real. Please somebody reset this game. The pain of being in The apple store is too much, you shouldn't exist, you don't exist. Don't let anybody from S.V.A. see you, not until the Dentist is done. We'll do it weekly she says. Weekly? What like one week of procedures over weekly? Weekly? What the fuck is that. It's like prying death on the curb of everything you've always wished never happen and a touch of braces, adolescence, earn your right back to adulthood and fucking. That's what it's like. Not that you can't still go the theatre all day and write reviews of your adventures there. It's probably ghosts, from the T.v. show. It's ghost T.v. I swear to God it's a real thing and you should know about it so it doesn't happen to you. In a fight the teeth got lost a while ago, not too many just two is enough to outcast yourself for years or whenever they implant your teeth. Please don't say dentures. please not at 31 being the Kid who wears dentures. Does everyone else call themselves adult from Generation Xy. You're supposed to be some sort of leader of this thing. Nothing but hiding and dining with death until an age I can return to the forefold. Well you know, 40 is a fine age for a film director.

Im not here. This goes on for a while. Twist the idea if you had friends invade your room in 2006 thought they were making a project of you like your inner thoughts the next big apple thing live afront all and spent 80k on it. When would you jump off this ride of being on a tv show or rather saying you are

Its horrible. It moves slow. Its shit not worth living throu whatever that means

Im going to watch all of 'Sex and the city' now.

That house still echoes in my soul on lakeside dr. Id known the agerholms since first grade. It wasnt a home dieing but my home. Things are dark these days i dont even really describe them. If arun was alive none o f this would have happened. One day maybe this blog make me money maybe me need pay p al and putting cash in my acc is too complex for people who want to d onate. I should have been thetr when d icm died. I can be perdonal like bleed online. Its my diary if you like it please donate so i cn buy a macbook pro and get back to editing. At td bank you can deposit me money please. Or however you wire money. I want to work in tv. Im hiding from life and everyone ages and im dead because of health firdy. I can accept the ugly must hide until fixed. It just takes forever. I feel like i died years ago when i lived like gunnar when he got off the boat he ra i sed me you know. I wis h i wrote more on his epitath. 2009. Im still mourning alone wailing like lochness for my teeth. Nyu has a dental clinic i need implants asap. Every day until then doesnt count. Fu x k chaos magi c k and this situation. Damnit. Fuck. Fuck my life my 40s will end up replacing my 20s. Gunnar i remember you fairfield father. Dear arun. I miss your light on earth. Its a dark world for me without you now but i still pray to you in my heart.

Im lonely. The isolation makes me crazy. Health first takes forever. Unrealistic for two simple procedures. I miss gunnar today. My fairfield family. The agerholms. How time banishes me. So lonely but never alone with the net. Im not here im someone else. Someone good at this.

City of big dreams

Dear girl at the show who called me guy of her dreams, I have bad teeth so ive decided not to see people until ive fixed this. Its a long outcasting heart to u from down the street

Its getting comd and lonely. I miss the friends. Its empty now a daily struggle to hopr for teeth soon. Cigarettes even go away sometimes. T y ping on android is hard. T houghts are slow. Atleast i exist in a blog. Atleast i am owned by Shire. All people used down perhaps. Show on. Vegetarian me, and the nightmare from 23. Johnnie mac from big brother save me on the teeth i am fucking begging with my life. Tired eat slow final 5 bb next b ig brother id do it if theyd fix my teeth. I shouldnt bring this u p but i dont see why he wouldnt work on me and Cbs should give him a spinoff show. The Agerholms disappeared giving me depression. I write to Gunnar sometimes. Amen to that mans soul.

If you ever tell people your on a tv show you better run with that logic. Make some xhaos magick art work because gunnar died and you were never supposed to see your biological father again. Pray to Arun. He must be a spirit near me. Wiccan gods help, praise goddess i need more studies. I have these thoughts ya know. And thoughts about how nothing beats final draft pro. Why write without it. Just wait until you replace your tools. Like the Sandman. Neil gaiman is writing my life. Age 40 is looking promising. Im 31 and if only i c ould get the dream cbs foundation to get johnnie mac to fix my teeth for free. Love that show and really im dead serious. Big brother reference bb17 if youre not one of us. Its my first id go watch the rest if i could find them. Im very attached to this show. If cbs picked them up why cant we have hipster in desperate dire emergency need so 31 and 30s not wasted on trying to impoverishedly pay for replacement teeth insurance wont. Dead on emergency

Trust me if you ever have bad teeth hide. Dentists take forever. The show, have to make one character Mike realizes as he comes to. Realizing it had nothing to do with 23 Kade hyperspace wares off.

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