if i don't find a doctor to continue my adderall script i will disappear until i can fix this because of my heavy add

AdHd imples i'm hyper which we all supposedly are now. Me-i've chosen the best to read this so if it's only a few people atleast it's stereogum.com i did complete the chaos magick of spinning in circles to up the ghosts highest level of luck okay sometimes i just believe them they wern't wrong about shoplifting and my times in 2009 record building were at first on purpose because i think i'm on t.v. but eventually i have to question this when jail gets to one month for a shirt and it's no longer cute and i have to use a newspaper to summon new ghosts Me-even now in part is a Meanie Heart i'm in distraction and hate i can't write and the thing will claim it is because of it, sometimes i got like angels that led me to surviving via the good ghost team that beat Harvey Weinstein brought me to Occupy Wal l street and they teach me how to survive. Me-not able to think now because the Meanie Heart wants to tell me it remembers i need cigarettes which would fix this hearing them situation sort of but somehow since i got schizophrenia takes away my bodies fuel unless i have more adderall in me Me-sometimes i hear these people here and i want to die, i should never be spoken to i don't present myself as somebody who should or would want to talk to you Me-the Meanie Heart voice wants me to know it ruined my last entry on adderall, seriquil did not fix this so far telling a doctor everythi g has done shit narcolepsy is before schizophrenia jesus amnesia me- it's pretending to be christie again i told this entity i no longer want to talk to it-I start to doubt that chaos magic can carry me any further but still complete the ceremonies Meanie Heart time is half of this one like telling me Me-shit i hate this thing that says it's john blaney the ghost constantly and is mad i graduated film school and forgot him years ago it wants to imply this is his revenge i don't really believe this or anything that this thing says me- i have to stay still with this broken charger but the Ghost thinks i am no longer christopher mastronardi but some entity that just draws all day i don't understand why a doctor couldn't just give me the pill that fixes this i know there has to be more to load on me because my current doctor i take the story that schizophrenia and amphetamines don't mix as sleep all day and be sane when you sleep on seriquil Me-i feel nothing right now. The seizure is controlling my sexual feeling and wants attention and is a child again or wants to get me in an institution you know i don't need that path the doctor only comes like once a week and it'll pause my teeth repair which already takes forever. The voices get sad if in the future i will do something mean like hurt disabled people like me, they also claim to see the future but it's not t.v. it's Hbo to fuck that shit Me-i don't like their lack of intellect. They don't grow past this point but do intersect with me being a universalist Me-if i have to watch one more episode in the background of teen titans!Go i will surely die; sometimes i jusr get images of t.v. in my eye anything to stay modern to say i know of teen titans!Go or show or attempt/can stay still for 30 minutes without it hurting. A ghost runs my feature length dreams sentences shouldn't exist in this one it doesn't exist in the Meanie Heart the voice wants you to know i have a nicotein fetish well #smokingfetish since 23 i've had these issues but never would i admit it if i thought anna would know she's not reading her email my happy birthday txt msg was not her phone anymore # to says thisvS.V.A. jedi hmm movie ticket bribs for living at the Brc i do not like this place the last people didn't give me a chance to paint over my Hbo Girls season:3 photoshoot on facebook.com/chrismastronardi.5 sorry if i blew up yor facebook i was trying to enact my myspace.com/little.nemo plan to get everyone to send me any adderall you can to my west park church address i don't know what bob would know (church preacher) to save me Teddy died there despite it being of crack and any story that he was my opponent for the room at the West Park Church Theodore Mapes saved my life and lived on the upper west side with me and was a gentleman with cocaine i never magic attack Teddy in chaos magixk power all my heroes end up in some metaphor in the art of chaos magic like burning souls so i can get adderall or maybe that is the gap between the living and the dead allowed to talk i've come a long way since Season:1 forecastmazy.blogspot.com in Brooklyn/Hell's Kitchen Manhattan suicide was even possible back then or self pity or worry that i had voices in my head, but over the years and Seasons of Little Nemo on Hbo i have learned to navigate this world, like in a facewar for my insides just read forecastmazy.blogspot.com and think normal film school School of Visual Arts student with .d.d. prescribed to medication one day comes down with schizophrenia symptoms. It's surely a t.v. show theoccupyfashion.blogspot.com would never comit suicide or hurt himself and got casually mugged with an ak47 (literally) during youtube.com/caitlinrodriguez1214 i figure Sephoras makeup will make up for the teetg i can't help bite myself and so far in telling a doctor the response is 'you're on adderall' THIS IS THE ONLY THING THE DOCTORS HAVE EVER DONE RIGHT just give me the bottle and i'll figure out how to fix it all of this is surely an exercise issue i just need to join a gym and it will gi away i hate the world sleep is all i CAN do without my