the futures uncertain and the end is always near-Roadhouse Blues

Me- I never planned on in 2008 after Bfa graduation what if the pain,the voices and symptoms wern't apart of Hbo last night's party.com Hbo reality t.v. but schizophrenia or something that had to be treated by a psych. I thought we lived in a Apple Computers in conjunction with Spyshop in Manhattan produced set. Season1 I thought all of The School of Visual Arts were waiting for us to graduate surviving through mass headaches that felt like burning brain knives cutting me (biting my hand automatically without control hadn't developed yet) and off my meds was a mode to survive that year but it's much worse off my meds and all I can do is sleep. Which was my strategy Hells Kitchen 3D (apartment number) to Brooklyn 2D (apartment number). (By moving to Brooklyn in 08 I thought I was bringing Hbo and economy to Brooklyn and siding with Williamsburg against the world). The headaches were helped by alcolhol and I just had to keep my hipster pose. Me-I never imagined our life without the Mfa.) Or that we would waste our camera equipment on Hbo selling it off the reality t.v. set of Little nemo on hbo. I thought there was a hint to do this but end up on the steeets and the brain thing is still there plus I can't wake up physically like not normal I mean I am out of Adderall and out of hope when I run out in 2008 I am lost in a world of psychosis and sleep and feel internally like a little kid and think I am on Hbo:I am going homeless. I think at this time I am talking to Harvey weinstein daily and DEFINITELY start my day with Michael Bloomberg all apart of a Bloomberg/Weinstein production of Little nemo on Hbo. I wake up and talk out loud to random stars and Republicans homeless in Penn station as they demand I steal the notebooks to write in because it's like a cowboy and like george W Bush is a cowboy and Ronald Raegan was an actor and I am from art school so I'm supposed to replace Raegan with the show. You know sometimes I don't steal supplies on the show I use Penn Station pamphlets- I went from saying goodbye to Anna just a year before in Penn station to living in it for the Republican party (I told you the word cursed me) my job on little nemo on hbo was to be the cute homeless never paid back for Season1 republican kid who casted and wrote notebooks by hand while living in penn station and outside Mollusk in Williamsburg , Brooklyn. I was in pain and off my pill, and it was brilliant because the show was named Little nemo and doctor Pill was in the comic book and all that