me - the mode

Okay I don't know what to call this thing because of the mode we bite our hand i'm not sure if i'm ready to handle that outside the creative arena and we write the word Meanie Heart to log it sometimes it's just self expression and sometimes it leads to hand biting but 24/7 i'm tired so this is something to tell a psych like how there's a nervous feeling that comes over me when I go to the computer and all of this sort of literally started one day years ago i mean I've been logging this since 2007 I don't know if I mentioned James Huges in livejournal.com/~forecastmazy but I was embaressed to bring up any of this. I traced it to around one day I went off my pill in 2006 and came back feeling like I was on a tv show. Since 2011 i've been adding up in my body it feels like logic that came from taking adderall again and going back on my medication. Thank you occupy wallstreet for helping me find a doctor under Health First. I didn't know how to do homeless I never planned on being homeless but me, after our 2008 "Season:1" I ran out of money to pay for my Bushwick ave apartment. At this time I was talking with the Guptas real close but I pushed people away as I got psychosis but pill since 2011 led to logic addup, but really I thought we were on a show then. The voices I thought were producers and it got alot worse off my meds but it just started one day with a whisper, when some shit said "Thats the Weinstein company" in 2006 but no pain, headaches or follow up really until 2007. So you could see why I thought my friends were making a documentry about me so I could work with the Arcade Firw, and in the No Cars Go video I decided I wanted to be an actor. So then I thought they were promoting me. There was no hand biting then. Mostly I attribute our wellness that year to us not going off our medication. But getting into the psychosis- I used to have full conversations out loud but thought the people were involved with Hbo art school channel. 2008 I also thought I get a t.v. station in Williamsburg, Brooklyn for graduating the School of Visual Arts on tv. This era is known as Season:1 http://www.youtube.com/williamsburgskittles At the end of the gradiation episode right before season 2 of little nemo on Hbo starts I don't get the t.v. station because Mayor Michael Bloomberg won't travel to Williamsburg , Brooklyn. It was supposed to be after graduation a celebration and the 24/7 reality t.v. show of Little nemo on Hbo ends and Season:2 I am an actor. And cameos on acting show by Harvey Weinstein. But instead after I leave Hart street in Williamsburg , Brooklyn where I end up couchsurfing after I lose 635 Bushwick where I filmed my documentation of the tv show the visual axis/mini-dv version of my blog; Michael Bloomberg orders an art marathon on Hbo Little Nemo (the 24/7 t.v. station I am on;atleast on this show) and thus after Hart street and Dvx filming mini music videos for Michael Bloomberg I am sadly left to go out into the frail lose my last electronic equipment and show the mayor me writing stories in little notebooks through my eyes (they can electronically see through my eyes back at the mayors office and Hbo headquarters thanks to the electronic chip in me since 2006). But all this made sense to me. I ran out of Adderall in 2008 and end up assuming the mayor wants me to steal notebooks and use up the concept of drawing for the Republican party. And I, a freshly joined Republican didn't want to fail him. And this only trippled my psychosis. I tell you one day this all started but you just tell your doctor and they add another pill and it's all fine. But I never wanted to tell Anna and didn't want to admit from the tired of the psychosis that I needed something stronger than Adderall to wake me up. Me going to savepoint this what happens when I think Hbo reality tv is telling me to lose my equipment for drawing for the Republican mayor after School of Visual Arts graduation...