with a sickness that associates cum to feelings physical.

that's what my main sickness is. And it is mainly hands. A ghost could have caused it if I didn't think I have some condition that I call schizophrenia but I think is some other thing a doctor could diagnose. Please help me. I as ashamed I couldn't even approach Lena Dunham if I had the portfolio I planned on making in film my School of Visual Arts thesis year. I live in shame and have HID this from the world for years. I just didn't want to admit I might have schizophrenia. I'm not delusion and don't want to hurt myself I JUST WANT TO WORK IN THE FILM INDUSTRY but really haven't because of my disease that I came down with one day. (2)