Hi this is reality - I can't write with out Adderall

But I'm hoping to get more even though I have run out of my doctor's script. My current doctor gave me a provigil script and I'm hoping it does somebody. I have a form of narcolepsy even though I call everything schizophrenia. I pray that you read my BLOG and comment and that maybe if you're a DOCTOR (PLEASE LET A DOCTOR READ THIS OR TELL ONE WHO CAN DIAGNOSE MY HAND PROBLEM I HAVE LOST TEETH BECAUSE OF THIS) you will be able to help me. I have constant amnesia that erases the last thing I did and my current psychiatrist can only figure to do this and seriquil but cannot diagnose what the hand problem is. I KNOW THERE's a name for this THIS IS NEW YORK it's somebody (my condition) that belongs in the Howard Stern community and SURELY OUR community can help which is why I started to promote this blog. That and I just want somebody to know I exist I miss my camera from youtube.com/forecastmazyfilms which is 7 years ago and I never really got to LEARN editing because of my schizophrenia and feel OUTDATED on life. I'm not dangerous or crazy just have symptoms to be ASHAMED of like feelings hands as juicy cum which DISGUST me and made me push my 'ex-girlfriend away (who was the only person I love who has the same birthday as the day they go back to the future. Happy 30 wherever you are. Love). I wrote my story up here. I'm at the fucking Apple Store and can barely stay still which is a condition I have and feel HANDS of CUM everywhere PLEASE DON'T THINK I'M GROSS I'M JUST being HONEST incase you ever meet me/ARE A DOCTOR AND CAN CURE ME I NEVERR TRIED TO GET A CURE BEFORE THIS JUST TRIED TO HIDE THIS. Eventually I put my biting online at youtube.com/caitlinrodriguez1214 I try to use it as "VooDoo" when in that mode and keep saying I'm going to work in porn but I think it's I'm broken down to my base thoughts. That's what it feels like anyways. Any voices/relationships I've had with them (DESPITE the shame) I have placed on blogs from caitlinrodriguezhusband.blogspot.com to forecastmazy.blogspot.com (7 years ago in Hell's Kitchen) (2) please HELP me return to the film industry whatever my condition is MIGHT not be SCHIZOPHRENIA it stops me from TALKING to people my SCREENWRITING side of my mind is BLOCKED and i feel HANDS all the time. please help if you can. howard stern to you (who may be my only hope) -Christopher Mastronardi (2) Little Nemo of Little Nemo on H.b.O. (I once thought I was on H.b.o. but continue this to this day the phrase and will for the rest of my life because it's all I have left from my GENIUS to write. I mean I was a Lean Dunham of the School of Visual Arts until I came down with schizophrenia which I like JtHm like. All I can do now is WRITE about it and make Seasons of a T.v. show. Even if nobody EVER responds and I never get cured I'll just keep summoning ghosts and go back to the WORK at the film industry one way or another. I owe student loans).