the hands are awful and I feel them everywhere they feel like cum I hear some shit in the background this is a simple thing to cure as a psychiatrist I don't see why it would take that long to cure or be a big of a deal to give me medicine I've been embarrassed of this condition for years and I feel some of the negative effects of schizophrenia like flat emotions and I also feel this Excessive Daytime Sickness I need somebody who can help me return to the film industry it's been 7 years since I graduated the School of Visual Arts and all I have is Little Nemo on H.b.o. I documented me thinking I was on H.b.o. I need somebody to please help me I am BEGGING for help please somebody who cares that ALL I WANT TO DO is make films but am kept back from it by this disease I can't think I hear voices they go away and then range in I seizure and bite my hand I wasn't always like this I JUST WANT A CURE so I can make movies I keep begging God somebody please hear me so I can go back to making films I never got to I came down with this sickness senior year I have my full story here it's ruined my life and the voices go away and I can ignore them sometimes I think this is creativity and it's not like being a fat black man with schizophrenia it's like having a Matt and Kim schizophrenia like i'm relatively creative and almost me but a good portion of my brain is blocked I hid this for a LONG TIME but decided in the name of Hbo Girls my flag of hope that I can return to life (and filmmaking in N.y) to go and expose all of this hoping that somebody will respond one day and restore me/give me a job